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MonicaPz : (24 April 2015 - 08:38 PM) B. Jenner is now on ABC's NightLine broadcast!  Sorry for the late notice . . .
MonicaPz : (24 April 2015 - 05:30 PM) After B. Jenner's interview, 20/20 on ABC, the former athlete's former high school coach will be interviewed!  If you don't get ABC on Channel 7, you can find the interview on http://www.7online.com
EmmaSweet : (24 April 2015 - 02:35 PM) I'm sorry to read that about MichFest. As you wrote in another post there will always be a vocal, hopefully-minority of "Group A's". Maybe someone else will pick up the baton to recreate the festival to be all-inclusive.
UsernameOpti... : (24 April 2015 - 01:25 PM) Lisa Vogel prefers to end MichFest rather than welcome trans women ... http://www.advocate....er-change-times
sigurdoug : (23 April 2015 - 07:12 PM) Took a short vacation but I'm back!  Have a Nice Day tomorrow :D
MonicaPz : (22 April 2015 - 10:23 PM) Don't forget the two hour special about B. Jenner on Friday's ABC's 20/20 from 9 P.M. to 11 P.M. EST!
WarrenG : (22 April 2015 - 06:45 PM) IT'S ALIIIIIIIVE XD I'm back, I'm here, I posted, and now I'm gonna go drown in a bowl of Coffee Icecream and celebrate. Check out the blog post to understand! :P
UsernameOpti... : (21 April 2015 - 08:44 AM) Chat Now!  >>  http://tgguide.com/message/chat/
ChristieG : (21 April 2015 - 08:43 AM) Hi Gennee, how are you today?
Gennee : (21 April 2015 - 08:40 AM) Hi ChristieG!
ChristieG : (21 April 2015 - 08:39 AM) Hi all!
Gennee : (21 April 2015 - 08:25 AM) Hello everybody.   :D
UsernameOpti... : (21 April 2015 - 07:52 AM) Like the chatroom... nice addition
Lori : (21 April 2015 - 04:47 AM) It was very nice to chat with you in the new chat room Crissiesan :)
Crissiesan : (21 April 2015 - 04:33 AM) Thats sounds like a very good idea ^^ I'll check it out for sure! ^^
Lori : (21 April 2015 - 02:52 AM) Added "Forum Chat." See the tab at top right. Currently limited to 5 members per session. If it catches on we'll upgrade. Say hi to your forum friends. :)
tiernan : (19 April 2015 - 12:54 AM) good morning/evening folks wherever you may be.newbie here!
Bobbirox : (17 April 2015 - 05:06 PM) Good evening everyone. I hope everyone is having a great day.
Missymarieme : (17 April 2015 - 02:06 PM) good afternoon ....Can I say I hate dishes ....
jennifer38 : (17 April 2015 - 07:41 AM) Hello to all newcomers and regular visitors to this website.  It's shaping up to be a beautiful day in the Pittsburgh area in spite of a little rain.





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First Bloom

Posted by lilybf , 19 April 2012 · 176 views

So. Here I am. With a new blog. I'll be honest - I most likely won't keep it up for long. I'm useless at being a regular poster.

Let's see, you'll want to know something about me, I imagine. I'm twenty... twenty... twenty... twenty-something (not a great start) twenty-four, and was born and raised a male. That was, in hindsight, a mistake but who could have known? I am, in fact, a woman though I don't blame anyone for being mistaken when they first meet me. Easy mistake to make.

I first began to realise that I wasn't quite what I appeared to be, what I thought I was, in around Febuary 2011 after a couple of suicide attempts. Nothing serious, really, certainly nothing at all effective though the scars along my forearm from attempt #2 are not unimpressive. I couldn't say if it was these events and qualities - of depression, heavy drinking, utter lack of motivation in university - that led to the realisation but more likely unexpressed gender dysphoria was a contributing factor to my state of mind.

If I had to point to one thing in particular, it would be the LGBT comic KhaosKomix and the community surrounding it. I found parallels with the trans characters Tom and Charlie and with the feelings and histories of other peoples' stories from the forum. I am still amazed that I never realised what I am before.

Since then I have appealed to psychologists and doctors for help in transitioning medically, and been refused, appealed again and been referred to a second clinic and am waiting to hear of an appointment date. Otherwise, I have deeds of my change of name and am distributing them around whoever needs to know.

Why, I wonder and perhaps so do you, do I feel the need to detail my history every time I enter a trans community? Am I trying to prove my credentials?

Anyhow, with all that out of the way, I hope to use this blog to detail my progress in transitioning and to thrash out issues which come up. Hopefully someone will find it interesting enough to read from time to time.




Have No fears Hun , Your Blogs will be read and though many will never message they are thinking and pondering the very issues that you are bringing up within your writings , I look forward to reading and Trust me I will be sure to enter a line or two if I feel your in a need of some Motherly advise ... LOL , I am a little out spoken I am sure you have came across many of my postings and as well many of the other moderators and admins , we do try to maintain a pressance , LOL.

Any ways Hun I want to thank you please Dont drop your Bloggin IF I have found one thing out it is to make sure to put down your thoughts it helps others and as well helps your self , you may come across your posts at a later date and giggle a little or cry because it was such a hard and precious moment that you had a large amoun t of emotion reflected within that post , so Keep at it hun it helps.

Hugs and Welcome
Stephani
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