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Gennee : (16 September 2014 - 06:59 PM) Hello, Naughty.
MonicaPz : (16 September 2014 - 02:10 PM) Welcome, Catskillgirl and Naughtynatashyxx!
BenFriday : (16 September 2014 - 09:49 AM) How did it do TJDavies? PM me?
Naughtynatas... : (16 September 2014 - 12:29 AM) I'm new here, hey guys
Tommiebefree : (15 September 2014 - 05:46 AM) Welcome cattskillgirs and WarrenG. I'm pretty new here also and the people here are geat.
Lori : (14 September 2014 - 05:14 PM) Hi catskillgirl - Welcome!  :)
catskillgirl : (14 September 2014 - 04:07 PM) Hi new here just joined
TJDavies : (14 September 2014 - 01:50 PM) So, I came out to my Father today.
MonicaPz : (14 September 2014 - 10:05 AM) Warren, the people here are kind, gentle and sensitive.  You need not fear being mistreated here.  You are in the right place.
WarrenG : (12 September 2014 - 09:04 PM) Sort of new, dont know many others of my particular situation so go easy on me lol
Tommiebefree : (11 September 2014 - 12:43 PM) I worked in those buildings in the early years in the '70's-sold flowers in lower lobby. god bless the first responders
MonicaPz : (11 September 2014 - 10:48 AM) Robin, thank you for reaching out to your sisters!
MonicaPz : (11 September 2014 - 10:45 AM) Gennee, this is my first shout out.  Took years for me to recover from 9/11.  Still affects me.  Lucky no family/friends involved.
Gennee : (11 September 2014 - 08:34 AM) Today's the anniversary of the 9/11 attacks.
Tommiebefree : (11 September 2014 - 08:34 AM) robin how will assist?
TransSister : (11 September 2014 - 06:17 AM) Good Morning new and excited to learn and love. I'm Robin and I am starting a journey of assiting MTF Transgenders.
Gennee : (10 September 2014 - 06:39 PM) Hi Dawn13 and welcome.   :D
Dawn13 : (10 September 2014 - 09:40 AM) I hope to be back more. I miss letting my hair down, now that is longer, with all my friends.
Dawn13 : (10 September 2014 - 09:37 AM) Hi new here.
UsernameOpti... : (10 September 2014 - 07:24 AM) Tommiebefree, please go  http://tgguide.com/m...lp-support/   Look for the thread, " How to Locate/Compose Private Messages."





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Posted by lilybf , 19 April 2012 · 148 views

So. Here I am. With a new blog. I'll be honest - I most likely won't keep it up for long. I'm useless at being a regular poster.

Let's see, you'll want to know something about me, I imagine. I'm twenty... twenty... twenty... twenty-something (not a great start) twenty-four, and was born and raised a male. That was, in hindsight, a mistake but who could have known? I am, in fact, a woman though I don't blame anyone for being mistaken when they first meet me. Easy mistake to make.

I first began to realise that I wasn't quite what I appeared to be, what I thought I was, in around Febuary 2011 after a couple of suicide attempts. Nothing serious, really, certainly nothing at all effective though the scars along my forearm from attempt #2 are not unimpressive. I couldn't say if it was these events and qualities - of depression, heavy drinking, utter lack of motivation in university - that led to the realisation but more likely unexpressed gender dysphoria was a contributing factor to my state of mind.

If I had to point to one thing in particular, it would be the LGBT comic KhaosKomix and the community surrounding it. I found parallels with the trans characters Tom and Charlie and with the feelings and histories of other peoples' stories from the forum. I am still amazed that I never realised what I am before.

Since then I have appealed to psychologists and doctors for help in transitioning medically, and been refused, appealed again and been referred to a second clinic and am waiting to hear of an appointment date. Otherwise, I have deeds of my change of name and am distributing them around whoever needs to know.

Why, I wonder and perhaps so do you, do I feel the need to detail my history every time I enter a trans community? Am I trying to prove my credentials?

Anyhow, with all that out of the way, I hope to use this blog to detail my progress in transitioning and to thrash out issues which come up. Hopefully someone will find it interesting enough to read from time to time.




Have No fears Hun , Your Blogs will be read and though many will never message they are thinking and pondering the very issues that you are bringing up within your writings , I look forward to reading and Trust me I will be sure to enter a line or two if I feel your in a need of some Motherly advise ... LOL , I am a little out spoken I am sure you have came across many of my postings and as well many of the other moderators and admins , we do try to maintain a pressance , LOL.

Any ways Hun I want to thank you please Dont drop your Bloggin IF I have found one thing out it is to make sure to put down your thoughts it helps others and as well helps your self , you may come across your posts at a later date and giggle a little or cry because it was such a hard and precious moment that you had a large amoun t of emotion reflected within that post , so Keep at it hun it helps.

Hugs and Welcome
Stephani
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