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UsernameOpti... : (01 October 2014 - 07:58 AM) Happy Birthday to sarahluiz
UsernameOpti... : (30 September 2014 - 04:30 PM) Happy Birthday to ChatroomStefi38
Dawn13 : (29 September 2014 - 10:24 PM) TJ wish you peace with your new you.
Tommiebefree : (29 September 2014 - 07:52 PM) Hey TJ thankyou for your courage-very inapiring
UsernameOpti... : (29 September 2014 - 02:43 PM) Happy Birthday to MinyteTX
Lori : (29 September 2014 - 02:36 PM) Congrats Ty :)
TJDavies : (29 September 2014 - 02:34 PM) Thank you guys!!! :) I'm so excited
UsernameOpti... : (29 September 2014 - 02:24 PM) WTG, Ty!
MonicaPz : (29 September 2014 - 02:19 PM) TJ, glad to see your outside start to match your inside.  Remember, you were ALWAYS a man!
Tommiebefree : (29 September 2014 - 04:30 AM) TJ. congrads
TJDavies : (29 September 2014 - 02:44 AM) I start testosterone next week!
Tommiebefree : (25 September 2014 - 07:16 PM) Dawn13 Your VERY WELCOME!
Tommiebefree : (25 September 2014 - 07:15 PM) Dawn2
Dawn13 : (25 September 2014 - 05:37 PM) ThanksTommiebefree :)
Tommiebefree : (25 September 2014 - 04:11 PM) out for now....
Tommiebefree : (25 September 2014 - 03:58 PM) so all I can say try and see for yourself!
Tommiebefree : (25 September 2014 - 03:57 PM) I mean to say that its has been since I started gazing that the truth of what I (this mind body) became clear and has manifested. That's what i know.
Tommiebefree : (25 September 2014 - 03:42 PM) I don't knopw how to classify him. In my experience he is free/liberated "enlightened. My advice is to ty and see for yourself. Its It is (in my opinion) that my transformation was supercharged.
MonicaPz : (25 September 2014 - 03:30 PM) Braco (I don't know him) may be an empath.  Believe that some psychics, mediums and empaths truly have a gift.
Tommiebefree : (25 September 2014 - 01:33 PM) Since seeing him my trans self came to the surface and I have felt free to allow it and myself to be female.





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Posted by lilybf , 19 April 2012 · 150 views

So. Here I am. With a new blog. I'll be honest - I most likely won't keep it up for long. I'm useless at being a regular poster.

Let's see, you'll want to know something about me, I imagine. I'm twenty... twenty... twenty... twenty-something (not a great start) twenty-four, and was born and raised a male. That was, in hindsight, a mistake but who could have known? I am, in fact, a woman though I don't blame anyone for being mistaken when they first meet me. Easy mistake to make.

I first began to realise that I wasn't quite what I appeared to be, what I thought I was, in around Febuary 2011 after a couple of suicide attempts. Nothing serious, really, certainly nothing at all effective though the scars along my forearm from attempt #2 are not unimpressive. I couldn't say if it was these events and qualities - of depression, heavy drinking, utter lack of motivation in university - that led to the realisation but more likely unexpressed gender dysphoria was a contributing factor to my state of mind.

If I had to point to one thing in particular, it would be the LGBT comic KhaosKomix and the community surrounding it. I found parallels with the trans characters Tom and Charlie and with the feelings and histories of other peoples' stories from the forum. I am still amazed that I never realised what I am before.

Since then I have appealed to psychologists and doctors for help in transitioning medically, and been refused, appealed again and been referred to a second clinic and am waiting to hear of an appointment date. Otherwise, I have deeds of my change of name and am distributing them around whoever needs to know.

Why, I wonder and perhaps so do you, do I feel the need to detail my history every time I enter a trans community? Am I trying to prove my credentials?

Anyhow, with all that out of the way, I hope to use this blog to detail my progress in transitioning and to thrash out issues which come up. Hopefully someone will find it interesting enough to read from time to time.




Have No fears Hun , Your Blogs will be read and though many will never message they are thinking and pondering the very issues that you are bringing up within your writings , I look forward to reading and Trust me I will be sure to enter a line or two if I feel your in a need of some Motherly advise ... LOL , I am a little out spoken I am sure you have came across many of my postings and as well many of the other moderators and admins , we do try to maintain a pressance , LOL.

Any ways Hun I want to thank you please Dont drop your Bloggin IF I have found one thing out it is to make sure to put down your thoughts it helps others and as well helps your self , you may come across your posts at a later date and giggle a little or cry because it was such a hard and precious moment that you had a large amoun t of emotion reflected within that post , so Keep at it hun it helps.

Hugs and Welcome
Stephani
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