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MelodySchwartz : (27 March 2015 - 05:56 PM) Hello everyone.....I have been so very busy. I so wish I could blog everyday...
veronicabeta : (27 March 2015 - 11:47 AM) Welcome Brian and brightest of Blessings
jennifer38 : (27 March 2015 - 07:35 AM) Too cold for late March here in the Pittsburgh area.  Glad it will warm up, next week.
TJDavies : (27 March 2015 - 05:12 AM) It's raining here. Meh. I have to clean my room so my landlord can show the house D:
Bonnie : (27 March 2015 - 04:57 AM) It is snowing here today.
Bonnie : (27 March 2015 - 04:56 AM) Welcome Brian and thank you!
Brians3420 : (27 March 2015 - 12:34 AM) i' a new member and have been needing to take this step in my life for some time now. I just wanted 2 tell everyone out there that you are the most special unique loyal group of friend or lovers that a man could ask for . So please keep being yourselves and I love you allm Have a nice day! xoxoxoxox
veronicabeta : (25 March 2015 - 08:41 PM) Really begining to enjoy Spring. The change in the amount of daylight? FABULOUS ! :)
TJDavies : (25 March 2015 - 08:17 AM) :o
UsernameOpti... : (24 March 2015 - 07:43 PM) Former homecoming king dies ... See the thread, Teen Runs for Homecoming King in the TG Children & Youth forum
veronicabeta : (24 March 2015 - 04:23 PM) Ok. Shoutbox edit ISN'T working now ! :)
veronicabeta : (24 March 2015 - 04:18 PM) Awesome Possum ! :)
veronicabeta : (24 March 2015 - 04:03 PM) Hey! Shout box edit is working now ! :_
veronicabeta : (24 March 2015 - 04:01 PM) Wrong Link.Sorry. This came out of my Google browser
ViBetaSCOT : (24 March 2015 - 01:21 PM) Thank-you Bonnie for the Welcome and I hope to be an example for all SO's who may have issues they want to discuss :mellow:
veronicabeta : (24 March 2015 - 10:58 AM) ViBetaSCOT has decided to stay. Which is nice. She's the BESTEST! wingman I have EVER known ! ;)
Bonnie : (24 March 2015 - 10:32 AM) We encourage SOs to become members here and you are most welcome ViBeta.
veronicabeta : (24 March 2015 - 09:41 AM) Hey Vi. Just disregard anything cross2play has to say. This person doesn't understand you are my significant other. Now that I see how SO's are treated here, sorry I talked you into joining. Feel free to  pull the handle any time you want GhostRider ! ;)
cross2play : (23 March 2015 - 08:19 PM) Disrespect always respect you'll keep respecting keep disrespect to keep bi polar in 'ya! Kidding everyone
veronicabeta : (23 March 2015 - 02:24 PM) LOL cross2play





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A Surprising Lack of Fervour

Posted by lilybf , 29 April 2012 · 246 views

I don't believe I've said it before, but it should be noted that these blog posts are (and are going to be) mostly stream-of-thought pieces with minimal editing.

Studies have found, I am told, that emotion cannot be maintained for significant periods of time. Whether a person's life and environment are good and bad, key moments not withstanding, most people will keep a dull and steady equilibrium of neutrality.

Perhaps that theory can explain why I do not on a daily basis tear my hair out, shriek myself hoarse or attempt to throw myself from some precipice or other. I rarely shake myself to pieces with self-loathing and fear I will never begin to approach my ideal - feminine - self image. Weeks can go by in emotional mediocrity, where I might almost be resigned to remaining... as I am.

I wonder, am I unusual in this as a transitioning would-be-woman. Does it show a death of hope? Or, more terrifyingly still, that I was mistaken all along?

Am I, in fact, cismale?

No, that can't be right, I am sure of that much at least. I react to that thought as I might to the existential horror of realising I am some inhuman, Lovecraftian being.

But still... the concern remains - why do I not feel as keenly as I might?




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