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Marsar16 : (31 October 2014 - 08:16 PM) Want to shed my twitter name and install my new name. Love some ideas hope to give notice and do the change.Marrttna
Marsar16 : (31 October 2014 - 08:11 PM) how is everyone
MonicaPz : (31 October 2014 - 05:22 PM) Happy birthday, Ally!
MonicaPz : (31 October 2014 - 05:22 PM) Happy Birthday, GreenShade.  Hope to hear from you soon, birthday girl!
Marsar16 : (31 October 2014 - 03:28 AM) Hi to All.
UsernameOpti... : (30 October 2014 - 09:14 PM) Happy Birthday to Ally
UsernameOpti... : (30 October 2014 - 09:13 PM) Happy Birthday to GreenShade
paula1972 : (30 October 2014 - 07:43 PM) Hi
nikkiyum : (30 October 2014 - 07:12 PM) hi
Gennee : (29 October 2014 - 11:26 AM) Happy Birthday, JessicaGLove!   :D
DianaLeather : (28 October 2014 - 07:15 AM) yikes, Howdy !
DianaLeather : (28 October 2014 - 07:15 AM) Howdt
WarrenG : (27 October 2014 - 07:54 PM) Loved this! Hater and homophobic got shoved down where he belongs for causing trouble and being a close minded baboon at a national airport. The man was accused of being a "***" by the homophobic buffoon just because he had a pink shirt on. Ridiculous! Glad to see those around them jump to his defense and protect the man in the (rather adorable) pink shirt ^_^ Made me smile
http://news.yahoo.co...-183349148.html
WarrenG : (26 October 2014 - 01:20 PM) I thought this was pretty neat, and wanted to share it with you guys. Werent sure how otherwise o.o lol http://news.yahoo.co...-231106807.html
WarrenG : (25 October 2014 - 05:50 PM) Thanks :P
Lori : (25 October 2014 - 05:38 PM) Nice pics Warren :)
WarrenG : (25 October 2014 - 02:47 PM) Pics added ^_^ I'm gonna try and add random shots of the fall foliage in my area lol
MonicaPz : (25 October 2014 - 10:15 AM) Warren, to add pictures, go to Gallery, then click on browse, to choose your favorite pictures, then click on upload.  You have to choose and upload one picture at a time.  Please let us know how it goes.  Looking forward to looking at your pictures!
WarrenG : (24 October 2014 - 07:43 PM) Nevermind, I got it XD
WarrenG : (24 October 2014 - 07:26 PM) I cant seem to figure out how to add pictures >.<





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A Surprising Lack of Fervour

Posted by lilybf , 29 April 2012 · 229 views

I don't believe I've said it before, but it should be noted that these blog posts are (and are going to be) mostly stream-of-thought pieces with minimal editing.

Studies have found, I am told, that emotion cannot be maintained for significant periods of time. Whether a person's life and environment are good and bad, key moments not withstanding, most people will keep a dull and steady equilibrium of neutrality.

Perhaps that theory can explain why I do not on a daily basis tear my hair out, shriek myself hoarse or attempt to throw myself from some precipice or other. I rarely shake myself to pieces with self-loathing and fear I will never begin to approach my ideal - feminine - self image. Weeks can go by in emotional mediocrity, where I might almost be resigned to remaining... as I am.

I wonder, am I unusual in this as a transitioning would-be-woman. Does it show a death of hope? Or, more terrifyingly still, that I was mistaken all along?

Am I, in fact, cismale?

No, that can't be right, I am sure of that much at least. I react to that thought as I might to the existential horror of realising I am some inhuman, Lovecraftian being.

But still... the concern remains - why do I not feel as keenly as I might?




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