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veronicabeta : (27 February 2015 - 10:50 PM) We're living longer, and prospering more. Thanks Spock! :) Fair Winds & Following Seas Shipmate! :)
UsernameOpti... : (27 February 2015 - 02:56 PM) RSVP on calendar for phone conferance to be held tomorrow, 3pm Eastern Time -   http://tgguide.com/m...kly-phone-chat/
UsernameOpti... : (26 February 2015 - 09:36 PM) Welcome to all the new members who have joined over the past few days!
TJDavies : (23 February 2015 - 05:22 PM) I hope to be a part of the next call x_x I keep on missing them.
Mattie20008 : (22 February 2015 - 11:25 AM) Thanks all for the great phone call yesterday...
EmmaSweet : (21 February 2015 - 10:01 AM) Cross2play: Please check the calendar entry for today. The conference call info is published there. I'll also send you a PM with this information.
cross2play : (21 February 2015 - 09:06 AM) RSVP I will try make it but where is phone chat as am on mobile device?
MonicaPz : (17 February 2015 - 06:38 PM) To RSVP for the weekly phone chat, under "upcoming calendar events," click on "weekly phone chat" that is on the right of "community calendar."
Mattie20008 : (17 February 2015 - 12:27 PM) Haha, I was having coffee with my daughter and we noticed- we were wearing the same shoes : )
veronicabeta : (16 February 2015 - 05:11 PM) Happy Birthday spikysam, wherever you are! :)
veronicabeta : (16 February 2015 - 03:29 AM) OK UsernameOptional. Understood. have to learn to type better or proofread better, but that works for me ! :)
UsernameOpti... : (15 February 2015 - 04:46 PM) The shoutbox is just that - for making a shout out like for announcements, birthdays, bringing a thread to the attention of members, etc.  Posting things in the shoutbox leaves no opportunity for discussion.  And if those who happen to notice do go into a little chat, it can scroll off before anyone knew it even existed.  And unfortunately, the edit feature is kaputt whether your session is active or timed out.
veronicabeta : (15 February 2015 - 02:51 PM) Hey, LUV the shout box, but is anyone else having issues with the "edit" shout feature. I'm on my six core gaming system now, and when I tried to edit my last shout, after hitting the edit button in the edit dialogue box, it just timed out?
veronicabeta : (15 February 2015 - 02:48 PM) What? Disnosaurs are evil? Don' tell that to Godzilla! He doesn't take insults well. She might wake up and go all "Spanish Inquisition" on the Human race.
DanielleCaswell : (14 February 2015 - 11:46 PM) one thing i cant stand is stupid christians thinking that dinosaurs can cause a child to think bestially  and bite  someone. id love  to smack the woman who is leading this stupid crap... http://guff.com/chri...ids/20?ts_pid=2
veronicabeta : (14 February 2015 - 12:51 AM) Happy B-day michellesmithuk, SexyKikyo32 and jesseboo ! :)
DaniellaQE3 : (13 February 2015 - 09:50 PM) Looked up redneck to be sure I got it right.  Dictionary says that a redneck is "an uneducated white farm laborer, especially from the South." Good honest labor on a neck bowed to the sun while working the fields.  I've done that.  Course some of my kin are red all over so I guess that makes them rate lower than just a redneck.
DanielleCaswell : (13 February 2015 - 05:33 PM) https://www.youtube....h?v=9ja4Z41_8BI Incase anyone has NOT seen this.. it is great. If you are not in the deep south you can not imagine the pure stupidity that they come up with to back up hate. This man Jeremy Todd Addaway made the funniest video letting all the rednecks know "its ok the world did not end"
UsernameOpti... : (13 February 2015 - 05:05 PM) WTG, Jennifer =)
UsernameOpti... : (13 February 2015 - 05:05 PM) Welcome to today's new members





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Beginnings

Posted by AuroraDream , 13 May 2012 · 233 views

I'm not sure if I would call me lucky for knowing I was "different" from a very early age.
I started at the age of three. It happened one Spring morning in 1967 at the VOA daycare center my Mom would leave me at. Most of the other kids had gone outside to play in the early spring sunshine.  I had stayed inside with this one girl, and we decided to play house.
In a moment of inspration she decided I should play the Mommy, and so I looked around and there was a life-sized doll in a pretty white taffeta dress with a petticoat and red lace trim.
I quickly undressed the doll and pulled the dress over my clothes. As I lowered the dress and smoothed out my skirts, I suddenly felt a warmth in my loins and an excitement I had never felt before!
I suddenly felt "right"
I felt complete and whole.
I felt like a great wrong had been corrected.
I felt a great tug on my right arm and I was yanked up to my feet by one of the voluteers.
I was instantly made to take the dress off, I was admonsished, smaked on my behind and made to stand in a corner.
I was left crying and confused, not knowing what I did was wrong (in their eyes).

  The second time I knew I was "different" came about when I was 6, I used to play a game with my mother in the morning called "What are you today?"
Every morning she would wake me and ask me "What are you today" I usually picked animals and my Mom would play along as she dressed me for the day.
One morning she asked me "What are you today?"
I groggily replied "A Girl!" Nonplussed, my dear Mother played along, thinking it was harmless fun.
She pretended to brush my pretty hair and pick out my pretty panties and the frilly dress I would wear that day.
My mind reeled with happiness and joy! Once again, I felt "right". But it would be very short lived. As soon as it begun the fantasy was over. And so began a long and very heavy sadness and frustration for such a young child.
I couldn't even beging to describe my feelings to my parents (especially my Dad as you shall find out later dear readers).
A little background here, my father was missing for the first  two years of my life after he robbed the safe at his job shortly after being promoted and ran off with another woman.
Why my mother took him back I will never understand.....
Well thats it for now, stay tuned as my life gets pretty messed up from this point.




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