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UsernameOpti... : (02 September 2014 - 01:06 PM) Happy Birthday, MarinaV
daniaskew : (01 September 2014 - 08:24 PM) C?
Tommiebefree : (01 September 2014 - 02:53 PM) Becoming a trans  woman is the strangest and most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me
Tommiebefree : (31 August 2014 - 08:28 PM) dEAL
SwanBeing : (31 August 2014 - 07:49 PM) keep evolving, & I will too
Tommiebefree : (31 August 2014 - 04:31 AM) Thanks TJ
UsernameOpti... : (30 August 2014 - 06:39 PM) Thanks, C2P... same to you.
cross2play : (30 August 2014 - 06:34 AM) Good weekend :) Everyone!
TJDavies : (30 August 2014 - 05:26 AM) A URL is an address link.
Tommiebefree : (29 August 2014 - 11:58 PM) Hey had a session with my therapist and she felt I am much more grounded and confident and grounded in my transition
Tommiebefree : (28 August 2014 - 03:30 PM) Sorry I forgot what a URL is
TJDavies : (28 August 2014 - 02:59 AM) I love the summer :( fall is my least favorite season next to winter
BenFriday : (27 August 2014 - 09:54 PM) I just want my school to cool down so I can focus and not sleep.
Tommiebefree : (27 August 2014 - 01:19 PM) thank you
drewlee0 : (26 August 2014 - 06:55 PM) Glad! I'm not a fan of summer. I like Fall the best.
BenFriday : (26 August 2014 - 06:38 PM) FALL! I want apple cider!
Gennee : (26 August 2014 - 06:19 PM) Summer will soon be over.
Lori : (25 August 2014 - 09:25 PM) Click on Blogs in the navigation links above and you should be directed to create a blog. Alternately you can click by your name and personal avatar at the top of the page and a drop-down menu will direct you to the blogs. I already have a blog so I don't see the exact way to set it up but let me know if you have any problems and we can get you going. :)
drewlee0 : (25 August 2014 - 06:25 PM) ERM... is this how you blog?
TJDavies : (23 August 2014 - 03:39 AM) :)





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Again with the Crying ....

Posted by stephani , 16 June 2011 · 105 views

Ok had another session with my therapist and guess what Tears they fell like rain , what the hell at no other time then this my anti-depressants keep me from tearing up or feeling a thing and I get in here and a few questions into the session I cant stop crying . Frig make up my mind then on top of it I got home and their I was an emotional mess again , my wife wants to know whats wrong and why do I keep going to see my therapist if every time I am going to turn into a basket case , crying over the littlest things and at nothing at all , she said she wanted me to stop going if this keeps up , and I told her I need it apparently because of the years of this building up and not letting go of it all , so I know I am gona cry my eyes out until I get this stumbling block knocked out , I thought I had made it past all this a long time ago but hey its really a different story when there is that carring soul looking back at you asking those questions and reflecting your pain ...

I know my problems but I simply cant get over them , is this a good thing for my transition , well no I need to be strong because transitioning is a mental battlefield constantly bombarding us with waves of attacks , so to be holding onto such old pain it makes transition seem insurmountable and almost unatainable ...


I know that I have to get past these problems as well because transition is a marvelous and splendid time that we should revel in because of the joy our lives are begining to expeiriance for the first time since our awaikening , But you know 34 years of battle is so hard to let go of in such a short amount of time , hence why Time be your best friend take it hold it and use it to make it past this crap , I know I am , Ok going to cry myself to sleep and hopefully when I wake up in the morning I have managed to break down one more obsticle that held me back from my happiness ...

You all my best Love and hugs

Steph




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