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veronicabeta : (29 January 2015 - 10:56 PM) Happy Birthday aom0129 ! Many Happy Returns ! :)
MonicaPz : (29 January 2015 - 09:26 PM) Fag Bug:  The Sequel is a HOOT!  Also love the trailer for TED.  Way to go, Charity!
CharityLynnC... : (29 January 2015 - 10:22 AM) https://www.youtube....h?v=S3AVcCggRnU who else wants to see this movie...cause i sure do!!
CharityLynnC... : (29 January 2015 - 01:01 AM) http://www.snagfilms...e/fagbug_nation sequel to fagbug movie
veronicabeta : (29 January 2015 - 12:07 AM) Rock On PamalaFlinn
PamalaFlinn : (28 January 2015 - 09:05 PM) Just so nice to be girly.
MelodySchwartz : (28 January 2015 - 06:54 PM) wishing well and happy thoughts for you KarenPayne
sigurdoug : (28 January 2015 - 06:31 PM) I am new to this and my question is do you think I am too old for your site?
sigurdoug : (28 January 2015 - 06:28 PM) I would like a general opinion from anyone that would like to leave an opinion
CharityLynnC... : (28 January 2015 - 01:41 AM) ok people...someone let the yeti loose again and now he's roaming boston... https://gma.yahoo.co...topstories.html
veronicabeta : (27 January 2015 - 10:11 PM) Happy BD NewRaechell  !:) Many happy returns.
UsernameOpti... : (27 January 2015 - 09:22 PM) Karen has made her first post after surgery...  check her blog here at TGG.
LovelyLisa : (27 January 2015 - 06:01 PM) Karen, I hope that you have a speedy recovery. But give yourself the time that you need to recover.
jls : (27 January 2015 - 11:07 AM) I hope Karen is well!!
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MonicaPz : (26 January 2015 - 09:38 PM) Karen is a lady just as much as before as will be after the surgery . . . inside and out.
EmmaSweet : (26 January 2015 - 09:22 PM) I third the well wishes to Karen!
jls : (26 January 2015 - 07:51 PM) Yes I second the well wishes to Karen!!!
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Again with the Crying ....

Posted by stephani , 16 June 2011 · 126 views

Ok had another session with my therapist and guess what Tears they fell like rain , what the hell at no other time then this my anti-depressants keep me from tearing up or feeling a thing and I get in here and a few questions into the session I cant stop crying . Frig make up my mind then on top of it I got home and their I was an emotional mess again , my wife wants to know whats wrong and why do I keep going to see my therapist if every time I am going to turn into a basket case , crying over the littlest things and at nothing at all , she said she wanted me to stop going if this keeps up , and I told her I need it apparently because of the years of this building up and not letting go of it all , so I know I am gona cry my eyes out until I get this stumbling block knocked out , I thought I had made it past all this a long time ago but hey its really a different story when there is that carring soul looking back at you asking those questions and reflecting your pain ...

I know my problems but I simply cant get over them , is this a good thing for my transition , well no I need to be strong because transitioning is a mental battlefield constantly bombarding us with waves of attacks , so to be holding onto such old pain it makes transition seem insurmountable and almost unatainable ...


I know that I have to get past these problems as well because transition is a marvelous and splendid time that we should revel in because of the joy our lives are begining to expeiriance for the first time since our awaikening , But you know 34 years of battle is so hard to let go of in such a short amount of time , hence why Time be your best friend take it hold it and use it to make it past this crap , I know I am , Ok going to cry myself to sleep and hopefully when I wake up in the morning I have managed to break down one more obsticle that held me back from my happiness ...

You all my best Love and hugs

Steph




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