Hi, I'm Debi, also known as Steambelle. My blog is going to go into some very deep places.  I think it would be right for me to say the following trigger warnings are in place:

-childhood sexual abuse, including incest and rape

-talk about suicide, mental illness and depression

-eating disorders

-self-mutilation

-psychiatric hospitalization

-physical, emotional and verbal abuse

-reparative therapy

My first full blog post is coming later tonight.  I'm mad as hell about there not being any supportive services where I live, and I'm not afraid any more of talking honestly about what's happened to me.  My transition is the greatest thing to happen to me and I am very happy finally identifying as who I am, but it still has to be said it is a miracle I am still alive. There are still a lot of suicide risk factors in my life and I feel I have nothing more to lose by relating these especially in the context of being transgender. I hope I can keep doing this as I blog more.