So the plan is to get a haircut that matches with my avatar here a bit more. Lots of layers but more shoulder length so it's more where I like it. I always dread getting my haircut because I'm always worrying they'll cut it way too short. I like it long-ish. 

Bree and I went out for make-up last week, just the basics. I'm currently in girl mode and feeling a bit giddy about it all. I went through and followed a really good YouTube video for make-up covering the beard and all that jazz and did a preliminary test make-up, the first time I've applied it where I wasn't going to be up on stage. Stage make-up is supposed to not be subtle, so going for more subtle is taking me some work, but overall I like the results. my facial hair shadow is hidden and although I caked it a bit on (it was my first attempt) it's overall pretty even and doesn't scream that there's an issue. 

Bree has me do her make-up after, and I did get a big kick out of doing up her make-up while in girl mode. Bree doesn't wear make-up, like ever, so it's kind of a big deal that she's letting me do this and even agreeing to it. I mostly got hers right, but considering she's the second face I've don I missed a few things. Overall it looks pretty decent though. I keep checking between the two of us to make sure this is actually happening which is making her freak out a bit but in a cute way. 

We shared my situation with some more of our close friends and my first therapy session is tomorrow. I'm a bit nervous, but we'll see how it goes. Bree also shared a few photos with a close friend who was curious. I'm both relieved and kind of happy that more of my friends know. There's been a lot of acceptance so far which is amazing. The one friend has even tossed out our way that I should feel completely comfortable dressing at her place when we visit. I am seriously considering taking her up on it. Good practice and I'll get to be more comfortable with my friends if I'm having a stress or anxiety issue and need to flip to girl mode. 

There's been more talks with Bree about things. She's nervous about the therapy and I get it. She's gotten very comfortable with me in girl mode and we've brought it into more intimate situations between the two of us. I can understand the thought of this changing isn't great. I'm actually quite comfortable with this. There are a few thigns mroe I want but don't necessarily need, like hip and butt pads with the girdle and a separate corset, but I also need to lose some more weight I think before we spend even more. Granted the corset would be ok for awhile as I'd just be able to close it more as I lose weight and then would have to buy a new one in a year or so. It's a want though, not necessarily a need. I'm getting what I need from Bree and in girl mode and the fact that we are able to connect so well to this in the bedroom and out of it has made things in our marriage work a lot better. She's still upset over me lying about this to her for 17 years and she has every right to be. I don't and wouldn't ever fault her for that. That was all on me and my fault and I should have just come clean a long while ago when I felt this all come back instead of trying to bury it and figure this out on my own. The other thing I'm trying to do is be more open instead of just leaving things up to her. Instead of going along with something I know I'm not going to like I really need to speak up and if it's something I want I need to really let her know and if I don't care either way, then be more specific. Communication is a beautiful thing that I'm not very good at sometimes. 

I need to try doing this every day and get my thoughts down. I'm not terribly good at this, never have been really but it's something that can help later, especially when I'm working with Bree to figure this all out between the two of us.

We have talked about going out to a local restaurant, well local in that it's in the next town and no one we know eats there besides us. The idea is to go as just two girls getting some tasty lunch. To be honest, I'm thrilled at this idea and terrified at the same time. Seeing the make-up results today helped a bit though. I need to find some good eye and eyebrow tutorials though so we can add a little bit more to the basics.