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I'm still alive, just struggling to recover from losing our cat.


Briannah

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I thought I was doing better, then I came home from work today, and there it was, on the table, Nikki had picked it up. 

The box.

My cat is in a box.  And I'm just losing it all over again.  Because the reality that my cat is IN that box.  And that there will be more boxes as time goes by.  I think I tried to bottle it up too hard to be there for Nikki, to be calm and comforting, and the reality of it came crashing down with that box. 

It's a nice box.  With a plaque with her name on it and the day she died.  And a little round plaque with her paw prints on it.  That they made after she was gone, but still.  It was her last little gift to us, that impression of her little paws.  That box is going to bother me for a long time, but time will fix it eventually.  Now if you'll all excuse me, I'm going to go and hug my cat whose still with me and try not to think about future boxes as hard as I can.  And I ate some fudge.  It helped.  Didn't fix all the feels, but it did help a little bit.

Hugs to all of your, hope the world is being kind to you all.

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I'm sorry to hear more about your cat. Goodness knows, we love our cats too. And we have several boxes, too. I think of them and miss them.  Not the one we have now, who only loves my wife!  She's no fun, at least for me.  

But for you, I hope you'll feel better soon. I know you know this, but these feelings will pass and you'll have fond memories. All animals touch us. Most people do, too.

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Hiya Briannah. One of Our 2 original Cat's, Our Tom Cat - Bobby, passed-away, at Our local Veterinary Hospital, on 2nd. May, 2012, aged just over 12 Year's. We do Not drive, and so I brought Him Home, in His Pet-Carrier, ( Which was covered over ), on a 4-Wheeled shopping trolley. ( It Is a 3/4 mile journey. ) I cried My heart out, the whole way Home. ( Even sending You this message, has started the Tear's again. I Am a typical emotional Girl ! ). Briannah, it must have been hard for Nikki, as well, having picked the box up, with Your little Pussy Cat Girl in there. Briannah, if You and Nikki want to have a good cry over it, then You shold do so, because Your little Girl, was part of Your Family, and You are grieving. Let Your emotion's out Sweetheart, because it will do Neither of You any good, bottling it up. Emma will agree with Me, ( I Am sure, ) there is No Shame, in showing Your Emotion's. Briannah, You and Nikki both Take Care, And My Very Best Wishes, to You Both. With Love and Hug's, Stephanie. xxxx 

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Oh, believe me, we have had several.  Her brother Creed has sorta stopped looking for her after two weeks, he's accepted that she's gone, but he doesn't know where.  Murder Kitty(Logan, but his behavior has earned him the murder kitty nickname) seems sorta pissed off because occasionally Yuriko would let him groom her and have some social time, where as her Creed wants nothing to do with him at all. 

I'm sorta more zen about it today, but I just woke up.  Must face work, hugs to all.

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Sorry to hear about your cat, Briannah.  Ya know... sometimes I think losing a pet is worse than losing a family member or friend... unless that family member happens to be a child.  'Cause we all know (we pet lovers, that is)... our pets are sorta like our kids.  Plus, it's tough when you lose something that is so completely non-judgemental, loves you with all your flaws and imperfections, greets you everyday like you've been gone for a week, and trusts you with their very lives.

{{{{ Big hugs }}}}
-Michael

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Thank you Michael.  It's been rough, and now I'm all freaky panicky over her brother, who was the Cat of my Life.  He picked me as a kitten, and has always stuck with only me, and I can't imagine him leaving me.  Unless he's mad at me for some reason, then he climbs on Nikkii's lap and yowls in this huge production until he's sure I'm looking to see him purring in someone else's lap as my punishment. 

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