I think I grew up a bit more somewhere along the way. I'm at the post-stressout phase and tired, but Nikki's wish to leave isn't as scary as it first was. I still have a lot of fears, but I think they're valid fears. What if he can't get a job, the unemployment rate in Ohio is still bad, what if we can't sell the house, what will my mom do since my son is moving out of state next week and then we're leaving too (I know, on the one hand she's pretty much made her bed with me, but on the other hand it wouldn't make Grandma happy for me to just not care if she were still alive, so mixed feels). Now I'm actually kinda getting worried that this new life is really starting to sound GOOD and something will happen and I can't have it. Grar. I"m so silly sometimes, huh? Two days ago freaking out that this was a thing, now freaking out if it can't be? LOL
At least I'll have Siri to help me find my home without the embarrassing call to anyone having to admit I don't know how to find my new home, please give me directions! And someone who knows the town well willing to show me around and share the local info.
I did a lot of work, my house is starting to look kinda naked and weird. Even if we can't go, the overhaul of the house will still occur and that will be massively easier without all the clutter. So it's not wasted. Well, I'm off to work some more. Working hard at night so I can spend afternoons with Nikki.