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I am feeling really girly today! As I was sitting on my patio this morning meditating, I felt more like a girl then ever before. Is was a very calm peasant experience that just make me feel happy and normal. It’s hard to put this into words but I guess I am starting to connect more with my true self. In the past I was always attached to the boy side because it was a great Benifit in my life. (Blessed with good looks) . People definitely treated me differently and it made life a little easier in most cases. When starting this transition that was something I didn’t want to let go of, so I was holding on to it. But as the boy is disappearing and the girl wakes up I am letting go of the things that were holding me back from being me. What a fascinating experience to go through. I am realizing how my much I have trained myself, not only in mannerisms but in thoughts as well. I am finding out more about what I really like in life and the true nature of why I made certain choices in the past. Looking at the past I can see many of the opportunities that presented themselves for me to transition. I guess I knew that when they were right in front of me (to some extent anyway) but just couldn’t take the next step. In hindsight I was just afraid of the unknown and that fear steered the course my life for a long time. Don’t get me wrong, I have had a great life filled with a ton of blessings but it was kind of manufactured to some extent. Now it’s starting to fell more organic or natural in a way. At the same time my brain is saying, hey! Wait just a minute there.....you are physically manufacturing your body with HRT and taking certain steps to change. That is not organic at all sooo.....I guess this must be on the spiritual level in some way. Either way it just feel correct. It’s kind of like the energy of the world is saying ahhhhhhhh finally we are on the right path. Welp! Time to shave the beard off! I am really looking forward to laser hair appointment. 😜

live,love,learn

Christy😍



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Dear Christy,

As I said in the Forums (in response to your post), good looking people in one gender tend to be good looking in the other gender when they transition.

Also recall my mother loved that my second brother had beautiful hair when he was an infant, and she allowed it to grow long until he entered Kindergarten. He was often mistaken for being a girl. Think this happens a lot, and when driven by the parent, does not affect gender or sexual orientation. 

Yours truly,

Monica

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Hi Christy, I have also had similar experiences and can relate to what you are saying. Thanks for sharing.

 

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Thank you Monica & Chantel!

When I here from other girls I don’t feel so alone anymore. It is amazing to me that my mood or just the general outlook on life can change so quickly when I here from others. When I was a baby my mom and aunt used to dress me as a girl all the time. I even remembered some of those times recently in therapy. They always said I was a beautiful baby. 

 Christy😍

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When I was a baby my mom and aunt used to dress me as a girl all the time. I even remembered some of those times recently in therapy. They always said I was a beautiful baby. 

​About a hundred years ago and earlier infant and toddler boys often wore dresses because it made sense for their hygiene. Also dressed in a christening dress when baptized. I remember seeing my grandfather's photo of him in a dress when a toddler. He was born in 1896...

Yesterday I happened across a YouTube video by some who claim that trans females are coerced or set up to be trans by parents inflicting forced feminization, petticoat punishment, and the like. We know this is all crap and nonsense. However, I'd suggest that outside of safe circles such as ours and therapy that you consider that some may use your childhood experiences as a way to challenge your validity. Be careful, protect yourself.

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I made certain choices in the past. Looking at the past I can see many of the opportunities that presented themselves for me to transition. I guess I knew that when they were right in front of me (to some extent anyway) but just couldn’t take the next step. In hindsight I was just afraid of the unknown and that fear steered the course my life for a long time

 

You are not alone here, many look back at missed opportunities and will ponder "what if I took that opportunity?", best to simply stop looking into the past (yes I did this too) and simply move forward.

The longer you are on this journey my guess is there will be many moments, when you least suspect it that a new feeling will emerge that seems out of now where that is totally female or how you walk thru your daily life and think to yourself, X amount of time ago I never thought this way, I've had those moments which would come at the strangest of times, walking across the street, chatting with the woman at work on a girls night out etc. Time presents many surprises both good and bad or indifferent, embrace them for what they are e.g. jeez I ran out of panty liners or I'm having a great time out with friends while the person at the table across from us just bought me a drink.   

Life may be short yet full of wonderful things, cherish the past with no regrets is food for thought.

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Thank you girls for the advice! I can remember like it was yesterday the moment I said to myself that “I want to be a girl” and sitting in the bathroom trying to turn the p into a v. I try to pay very close attention to what people are saying & what I am thinking. If someone is a negative person I just move on. It is wasted energy in my view but I also have empathy for them as well. It stinks to live that way. IMO. I have also found myself thinking completely differently about a lot of things. I have a nice motorcycle that I loved and planned on passing it along to one of my kids. I haven’t touched it since I made this decision. Nor do I want to. Weird. I’m still keeping it though😃. I’d rather get my nails done than play golf. Music taste is changing. I could go on but you all know this already. Right now I am just trying to enjoy all of it because it is amazing. Fascinating really. What an experience. 😁 thank you, thank you, thank you 

Christy😍

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I have a nice motorcycle that I loved and planned on passing it along to one of my kids. I haven’t touched it since I made this decision. Nor do I want to. Weird. I’m still keeping it though😃. 

Hey, let's not get crazy here! ;) Girls ride motorcycles too, and look darn good on them! I think I know what you're experiencing. I went through the same thing. I actually threw away every single piece of male clothing and I quit riding my motorcycles for a period of time. Gradually, as I settled into my new gender role, I allowed myself to enjoy things I used to and started riding my street and dirt bikes again. I even wear the occasional piece of male clothing -- like motorcycle gear. Why not, if it is better suited. 

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Indeed, I enjoy motorcycle riding too (prefer off road), motorcycle engine work,  woodworking... Women enjoy these things too. I will say, though, that my KLR650 is so heavy, I’m not sure if I could pick it up anymore!

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