I had so much fun with that app and it really did lift my spirits but I started spending to much time with it. The pic started to bother me for some reason so I took it down. I found myself saying “oh I will never look that good” which probably isn’t healthy for me. The future is a mystery. Today was good, just kind of even as far as the transition goes. I did get to spend a lot of time with my kids and even took them to a show with my parents. We had a great time. My father still doesn’t know yet and I’m not sure how I will get the courage to tell him. I will work on telling him and my wife with the therapist next week. 😬 I am excited and nervous about my laser hair removal appointment tomorrow for my face. I have a feeling that might easy the dysphoria a bit because I can’t stand this beard. I couldn’t shave for 2 days in preparation for the laser. Ugh. I will have the opportunity over the next couple of days to sleep in girl clothes 😍 I have been taking care of my body, working out, eating healthy and just trying to enjoy all these new feelings. I do get some doubts but they don’t seem to last very long. Luckily I have some transgender friends that I met and they are a blessing to have in my life. One guy ftm, invited me over today to me his wife and family which was sooo nice but I had my kids so I couldn’t go. 😕 maybe next week. I will post my thoughts on the laser tomorrow and if it hurts more than the back. I have a feeling it might. Well off to bed.