1. KarenPayne

    Well starting yesterday it's ninety degrees plus for the next week and happy to have AC. Have completely tossed the idea of wearing a bra during my non-working hours. I got up at 3AM this morning and the temperature was close to eighty outside. 

    Each year it's getting worst with the heat, 20 days of  ninety degrees plus days in August but none prior and now we have this happening in June, no a good sign for the rest of the summer and expect many more days of heat. 


  2. KarenPayne

    Watched "The opposite sex, Rene's story" on Showtime and think it's sad that her three brothers and most friends disowned her and that it's not just her but many that transition lose friends and also their jobs which there has to be a fair percentage that leave these people into a dark place or worst. Coming out and transitioning is one of the most difficult things a human can do.

  3. MelodySchwartz

    hello fellow sisters and friends......I finally get to re-start my hrt next week when I get home. yea me im so excited. wish me luck.  after a broken leg a month plus off work my mother and fathers failing health and hospital visits.....I think things are getting back on track. so wish me luck and best wishes to all of you.......xoxo

  4. KarenPayne

    All day long I felt to tall and have no clue why, think I will take a spin in a dryer :) 

  5. UsernameOptional » Natalie1952

    anim_partyblower.gifHappy Birthday, Natalie :)

  6. KarenPayne

    I am seeing an old pattern emerging with myself in that 20 years ago I would get up at 2AM in the morning and be wide awake with vast amounts of energy coupled with weight lose. This stopped with a low thyroid condition. Now the pattern is back, have seen slow but steady changes in weight lose which any girl will welcome if in good health. Part of the weight lose is I am sure due to walking twice a day when possible or when not getting on my treadmill.

  7. KarenPayne

    One more day until the weekend when I am going to bask in the sunshine.

  8. KarenPayne

    For what it's worth, June 22 is "No panty day".

  9. KarenPayne

    It's early still but from the looks of things it will be an awesome Monday. This afternoon I am getting my two week manicure which I always enjoy talking to the other ladies and getting pampered. Hope everyone has a great Monday!!!

  10. KarenPayne

    Heading off with my best female friend to the Portland Trans parade shortly.



  11. KarenPayne

    Thinking back to prior to transitioning I cherished working from home two days a week but since transitioning only work one day from home as it's so much more fun being with co-workers than not. Today, Friday is the only day I work from home and find myself wanting to go into work. Just shows how things get better over time so if reading this and on a path to reassignment that this shows life can be better.

  12. KarenPayne

    One more day till the weekend woo-hoo. Saturday I am attending the local Transgender parade in Portland which will be my first time. Since it's close to my friends house (who is going too) we don't have to contend with parking which is great. Enjoy the day!!!

  13. KarenPayne

    So happy the weather has dropped in temperature from the high nineties to the low eighties today and I love the new thongs I purchased from Victoria's Secrets last weekend. Hope everyone is having an epic day!!!  

  14. KarenPayne

    Another day of hot weather, perfect day for a skirt and light tank top. Hope everyone has a wonderful day.

  15. KarenPayne

    About one month ago I applied for an Angel credit card from Victoria's Secrets because I shop there constantly and figured out I was losing out as when purchases are made they give you points that earn me specials and discounts. What girl does not like discounts on their underwear?

    Got a letter of denial indicating something wrong with my social security information. So I waited a month and had a similar issue. So was I surprised when my Angel card arrived in the mail today. So I am one happy girl now. 


  16. KarenPayne

    Enjoying the cool morning air before it gets hot this afternoon. Hope everyone has a wonderful day.

  17. Dawn13

    Have been following all the Jenner news.  This has stirred some of my recent thinking.  What is the core of why we have our feelings and want so much to change.  I think there is a certain desire to see ourselves as beautiful.  Women express this better than almost all men.  When I put on a dress I feel changed.  When I see other men I see most of them as lazy/unkempt, fat/heavy and scuzzy.  This is the excepted image of most men.  I do not fit this image and I know I am stared at a lot by other men, usually in restrooms, who do not expect a beautiful looking man.  When I look beautiful (Handsome) day-to-day, I am often mistaken for a girl, even when in unisex or masculine clothing.  I usually do not go out of my way but I am well groomed, very tan, fit and now have longer styled blond hair.  I think some of why I wish I could change is rooted in the concept of beauty - and if men could also be beautiful in what is currently a woman's norm early in life - I think fewer would be unhappy with their body image and fewer would want to change.  Here is another thought.  I think is more acceptable to be changed completely into a woman than it is to dress and adorn ones self in a similar fashion.  Yes, I would love to wear a colorful attractive dress and show off my small waist and still not try to hide that I have a somewhat feminine looking male body.  However, I feel less anxiety when I go through the complete effort of hiding any maleness as I look completely like a woman.  Also, I actually feel safer in woman mode as I do not see myself as a homosexual; not wishing for men to lust for me in this fashion.

  18. KarenPayne

    Yesterday afternoon was the first time I could wear a bra after breast augmentation but unfortunately all I have are underwire bras and after a few hours the underwire was hurting so first chance today I am heading off to a mall within walking distance of work to get a non-wire bra and get a bra fitting tomorrow as I took the day off which I typically do during the summer months. 

  19. KarenPayne

    Just spent one hour listening to a clergy man talking about how wrong gender reassignment surgery is. He had valid arguments but did not fully grasp all who transgender and their life as it is. This all started on Facebook and was targeting people of faith and could not resist but to reply in a civil manner. Will wait and see what if any rebuttals are written from my reply. 

  20. WarrenG

    https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8FWRfZBHaU46LzyhAJoL7A  my new trans/pan friendly youtube channel ^_^

  21. KarenPayne

    Weather today, just like yesterday looks to be the makings of a good day to get out and enjoy the sunshine and the beauty of this place I call home. May you all have an epic day!

  22. KarenPayne

    What a wonderful day it has been, spent time with the girls at my hair salon then an excellent photo shoot. In between I stopped into Victoria's Secrets and pickup a new thong. One of the sales girls asked if I wanted to be fitted for a bra and replied with I will be back next weekend as I am still recovering from breast augmentation. She asked if it hurt and I replied comically it's all in the meds as I did not want to discuss my tolerance for pain. 

    Tonight I had pizza with one of my neighbors to close all the day.

  23. KarenPayne

    Noticed breast skin started to peel slightly last night and that the cream is working great keeping my breast soft 

  24. KarenPayne

    Last night my pain seems to be very diminished, almost non-existent. Even with that I am still taking things easy. One caveat, since I can't wear a bra my nipples show and very hard to conceal as they are semi erect most of the time and expect that to settle down.

    This morning I am starting the day with zero meds.