WarrenG

I don't work at a bar. I'm security at a private academy that host's a bar during the summer. And I asked the companies and what ever that and no one has said Jack.

They said gynocomastia is cosmentic and not covered. They kept refusing my surgery because of my ID saying male. I hadnt applied as female. 

Either way, I need to talk to insurance again before trying to change it and MAKE DAMN SURE that if I change my ID, then YES they'll do surgery. I'm not changing it if they wont touch it still

It was a woman at the DMV and yeah I'm in NH. But like you said, she could have seen it wrong

cant do 4 or 3 as my internet is not good enough. tried number 2 but neither know what to do since it's not happened to them before. and I tried 1 and got no response.

Sorry Bluemoon

Thanks  Yeah I grew u with snakes all over the place so you get used to them. I like trying to catch Garter snakes lol theyre so adorable  In a house I lived in with my mom at one point, they used to crawl out of the chimney in the basement lol

It still accepts donations I think, but it now is making me withdraw on the first of every month (if available). Not sure why.

Would be nice but I dont meet new people. I work, I sleep, I go on facebook (the land of fake) and go back to work.

It actually is my facebook photo XD (just ask if you wanna be added!) And the photo was taken on Christmas Day  only time I'm allowed to wear a tie, but I didnt actually get to wear it out anywhere. (Was asked not to)
Thanks for all the comments ladies!

<3 

Hit the nail on the head, ChristieG

Dont really feel like making a whole blog post about it but I'm not really doing the greatest. I'm five seconds away from committing myself, I'm THAT serious about doing something I might regret. I have ceased my communication with my best friend because my bipolar mood swing bullsh*t has gotten so out of hand that I'm continuesly upsetting her or fighting with her, so I decided it was best to just stop talking to her altogether. I've also deactivated my facebook account because it feels like every 'friend' I have on there is fake and only cares about the latest gossip and not wether or not I'm legitametly okay or not. So what's the point? I dont talk to anyone, I dont visit anyone, and no one does the same for me. So there's no f*cking point in attempting to. I'm done. I'm done attempting to help other people and I'm done making the effort to talk to others when the bottom line is that they just dont give a sh*t if I were here every day or if I was dead. They'd move on to the next bit of drama and forget my very existance. I simply dont give a sh*t anymore.

Surgery isnt happening, yet the bruising/rashes/backpain/agony/dysphoria persists. Basically been told flat out that the insurance company doesnt give a sh*t if its mentally and emotionally damaging for me to have them, as well as causing me every day pain. They just dont give a f*ck.

So why should I?

After a while, people just get really tired of being tired. They get really sick of feeling sick. And theyre just really f*cking done with fighting.

Warren

Doesnt matter what the surgeon agrees on or not. I cant afford to do it.

There's no other surgeons around here who will do it without hormones. He's not sure on doing full removal because of my weight. Says it won't look natural.basically saying I need fucking manboobs to look normal- _- he was extremely cooperative and never once called me a girl. Would say things like "theoretically if you were female, your bra size would be....?" So he was very respectful ans I like him. He's trying to find a way for insurance to help, and they won't if it's full removal. That's why he doesn't want to do full removal. As for the suicide thing- -- I've tried a total of 8 times since age 14. Think I understand by now the impact.

Not enough to make it worth it.

Went to my surgery consultation today. Looking like they'll only do reduction and not removal...so what's the fucking point.....

No, I don't talk to anyone about it. Attempted to talk to a friend about my thoughts of suicide but it's too painful for them to hear. So basically be honest but only tell me the good stuff. Frankly no one wants to hear about it so I'm done talking about it.

Doesnt matter if I respond or not, we've blocked eachother lol like I said, I have no contact with my family. And my friend defriended and blocked her as well so that whatever we share between eachother does not get viewed by my bio-family. I'm over them.

I dont need people like that in my life. The people I need are supportive and loving, and that's what I have. I dont need blood ties to appreciate my new family.

i havent been in contact with my mom or my older sister for months. they only call me when they want something or to torment me, and usually I dont answer the phone. The only reason this all occured was because we have...had?.....a mutual friend, Lisa. So Manda saw what I posted on Lisa's page and went...well....Manda, on me. Otherwise I have no contact with my bio-family aside from my younger sibling. The only one who respects me and calls me by my legal name. I have a family, and it's not by blood. I've claimed my family due to those around me who actually care about me and respect who I am. Manda had lashed out ambitiously to that post which I'll show you in a minute, but I was very overwhelmed with love and support from other people who bitched her out for it promptly. 

We CAN chose our family.

And she's not in mine.

LADIES AND GENTS

PLEASE TAKE THE TIME TO CHECK THIS OUT!!!

http://www.ustranssurvey.org/

Bring some awareness to our existence!

Love you guys

Warren

P.S.

Got a military cut today

Monica,

Thanks! I love that necklace (which has mysteriously disappeared, still looking for it) It was given to me by the medicine man in my family's tribe when I got my indian name  Love my native heritage! lol About the surgeon yeah I have gotten several opinions on both him and other surgeons, and unfortunately my options are severely limited. There's no way for me to go out of state, let alone out of country, to get it done anywhere else. There is just no way of doing that. The prices he's given so far are reasonable and he DOES have pics on his website about transgender top surgeries and they look great. I've talked to a few of his past patients and they had nothing but good things to say. Even so, this is only the consultation. To get more info. I'm not jumping into surgery just yet, I'm just gathering the info. He said he couldnt give me a 100% sure quote unless he actually sees me and what he'll be doing which seemed reasonable.  There are only 4 surgeons in my state who will do the top surgery, and he is the only one that isnt at the hospital that requires me to have therapy and HRT for a year+.  So hopefully I'll get this figured out soon. At this point I dont even give a **** about scarring, crooked incisions, etc. I just want them gone, they hurt so bad and my breathing is getting worse

Warren

Monica,

I hope you dont mind but I quoted your depression section of your comment and added it as a comment on my depression video  Thanks so much!

thanks everyone  ill post another blog entry after my shift tonight, lots of love!!

Warren

UPDATE: Super tired lol ill try and post tomorrow. much love!