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Naughtynatas... : (18 September 2014 - 11:57 AM) Evening
Gennee : (16 September 2014 - 06:59 PM) Hello, Naughty.
MonicaPz : (16 September 2014 - 02:10 PM) Welcome, Catskillgirl and Naughtynatashyxx!
BenFriday : (16 September 2014 - 09:49 AM) How did it do TJDavies? PM me?
Naughtynatas... : (16 September 2014 - 12:29 AM) I'm new here, hey guys
Tommiebefree : (15 September 2014 - 05:46 AM) Welcome cattskillgirs and WarrenG. I'm pretty new here also and the people here are geat.
Lori : (14 September 2014 - 05:14 PM) Hi catskillgirl - Welcome!  :)
catskillgirl : (14 September 2014 - 04:07 PM) Hi new here just joined
TJDavies : (14 September 2014 - 01:50 PM) So, I came out to my Father today.
MonicaPz : (14 September 2014 - 10:05 AM) Warren, the people here are kind, gentle and sensitive.  You need not fear being mistreated here.  You are in the right place.
WarrenG : (12 September 2014 - 09:04 PM) Sort of new, dont know many others of my particular situation so go easy on me lol
Tommiebefree : (11 September 2014 - 12:43 PM) I worked in those buildings in the early years in the '70's-sold flowers in lower lobby. god bless the first responders
MonicaPz : (11 September 2014 - 10:48 AM) Robin, thank you for reaching out to your sisters!
MonicaPz : (11 September 2014 - 10:45 AM) Gennee, this is my first shout out.  Took years for me to recover from 9/11.  Still affects me.  Lucky no family/friends involved.
Gennee : (11 September 2014 - 08:34 AM) Today's the anniversary of the 9/11 attacks.
Tommiebefree : (11 September 2014 - 08:34 AM) robin how will assist?
TransSister : (11 September 2014 - 06:17 AM) Good Morning new and excited to learn and love. I'm Robin and I am starting a journey of assiting MTF Transgenders.
Gennee : (10 September 2014 - 06:39 PM) Hi Dawn13 and welcome.   :D
Dawn13 : (10 September 2014 - 09:40 AM) I hope to be back more. I miss letting my hair down, now that is longer, with all my friends.
Dawn13 : (10 September 2014 - 09:37 AM) Hi new here.





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Getting Good With Myself ;)

Posted by PlagueBubonic , 31 January 2012 · 105 views

I thought, because I dressed like a woman every day that ment I was becoming a woman.I was wrong.
I will never be a real woman, and I know that now; yep thats right I'm a transwoman, and I proud to be one of the many!
Never again will hide myself, because I'm embarrassed of myself, and the way I look.
This took a lot time to come this realization, and I sure there is more to come. However this is a big step for me and my path toward to transwoman hood. I never want to fool anybody ever again like I did for many years while I hid my gender identity disorder; I did this out of ingorance. I know this was wrong for I hurt people I love, and care about, and this is a hard pill to swallow! But I will get it down.
I'm tired of look down when people walk by me; I have to get over this fear if I want to progress, I know this.
I wish I had a answer for some of thing I'm going through,but I don't; I guess I'll figure it out the best I can along the way.There are many things that go through my mind during the day; some good some not so good. At least I stopped wanting to die, and my thinking is more focused on being kind to others; even if they are not toward me. I know that my heart condition means more then looks do, and this is another important step to becoming a transwoman. Looks will fade with time, but a good heart will never fade away! Most people are actrated to a positive person than negative one.  
I just wish I looked less like a guy in a wig; I hate mirrors for the reflection in it shocks me. As long as I don't look in one I know I'm a translady I feel like one too, but when I do...
well you get the picture. I hate to shave nothing makes me feel more like a trangirl.<sarcasm>
This is the not so good part of my thinking; O, how could I forget my hair...ba!!!
What a cry baby I am ....No it just tells me I have a lot of work to do; I'm not going to stop for when I do stop I'll be dead!! I'm not ready for that yet; even if some wish it...you who wish this..too bad for you.
I can just feel it things are going to turn around; I've already seen a few thing doing this. Every day in every way things are getting better, and better!
If you could see my eyes you know how I feel; for the eyes are the gate way to a persons soul.
My eyes show that I'm the happiest I ever been now!!
I never want to go back to my old way; I will not alow this to happen.
I like to share this quote, it's from M. Scott Peck 1936-2005 " Share our similarities celebrate our differences." I think that applies now for I well know I'm not alone in my thinking, as well as my journey.
You know Jesus Christ said something about a journey it's found in the bible at Matthew 7:13-14.
Quote: "Go in through the narrow gate;because broad and spacious is the road leading off into destruction,and many are the ones going in through it; whereas narrow is the gate and cramped the road leading off into life, and few are the ones finding it."
Well I believe I found that gate, and road now and I've never felt more alive, and in control of my life.
Peace Out.....=^.^=
Don't you all be judge'n me!! ...LOL :lol: < joke sillies> ;)




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