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UsernameOpti... : (18 December 2014 - 07:55 PM) Happy Birthday to stephani
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AshMich1945 : (18 December 2014 - 10:57 AM) Hello...my name when I'm transformed, is Ashleigh Michelle James. I'm a lifelong cd/tg from sw Connecticut. I've been fascinated by female attire and femininity since I was very young. Now that I'm mature, I can enjoy all the benefits of being a woman. I hope to meet many more members from CT and share my experiences with them as well as possibly go out for shopping trips, coffee latches and brunch.
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jennifer38 : (15 December 2014 - 10:56 AM) I plan to hold another conference this Saturday at 3 PM Eastern.  For those who came to the last one, the number and meeting ID are the same.  Anybody who does not have the number and is interested, please message me, as I've been advised to not openly post the number and ID for fear of them falling into the hands of troublemakers.  Also, anytime I bring up religion and The Bible, it is not meant to intimidate or embarrass anyone.  I'm sorry if anyone feels put down, because I have no intentions of doing so.  In spite of my transgender feelings, I have a deep love for Christ, but I respect those who don't believe like I do.  My goal of these telephone chats is simply to create a telephone hang-out for us fellow trans on all levels of the spectrum, and for our allies.  I hope to see you all there.
cross2play : (13 December 2014 - 07:57 PM) I cross dresser 1st time in days & walked on high street as her it was amazingly incredible : cdsing in moderation he he !
PamalaFlinn : (12 December 2014 - 02:56 PM) Jay P . I am in Baltimore sometimes.
MonicaPz : (12 December 2014 - 01:15 PM) Jen, it was great, and I can't wait!
jennifer38 : (12 December 2014 - 01:12 PM) I thank everybody who called into my telephone conference.  It was wonderful.  I feel good about talking to others and hearing their perspectives.  Lord willing, I will hold another one, soon.  The conference number and ID will always be the same.  I will let you all know when I plan to do this, again.  God bless you all.
JayPea25 : (12 December 2014 - 11:50 AM) Anyone in Baltimore!?
veronicabeta : (12 December 2014 - 12:16 AM) Dug the Vid Warren. T.Y.!
Bonnie : (11 December 2014 - 02:45 PM) Fun video, Warren, except for the ending.  The jumping while running hand in hand.  It is good to see a video like this though.  Thank you.
jennifer38 : (11 December 2014 - 11:41 AM) This is a reminder about my telephone conference, tomorrow afternoon at 3 EST.  Come out and enjoy yourself.  This is a general chat about our various transgender feelings and issues.  This is a great way to get to know one another better.  Details are in the calendar.  If you have any questions, please message me.  Hope to see you there, tomorrow.
EmmaSweet : (09 December 2014 - 10:13 PM) Cool, Warren! Good thing they had subtitles. My Japanese is pretty weak!
WarrenG : (09 December 2014 - 08:57 PM) I found this really interesting/adorable homosexual music video and thought I'd share it with you guys and girls ^_^ (i grabbed the one with english subtitles for you XD) https://www.youtube....h?v=xxyA26gJ22E
jennifer38 : (09 December 2014 - 11:08 AM) Here's the number and code for my telephone conference I plan for this Friday, now at 3 PM Eastern.  The number is (605) 562-0020.  The meeting ID is 201-909-465.  This will just be a general hang-out and chat about our transgender issues and feelings.  This will be another time I can be one of the girls, even though I cannot do that in everyday life.  We can just enjoy ourselves and get to know one another through good old-fashion talk.  Hope to see you all there.





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In a Tight Spot

Posted by JanusTrepide , 20 April 2012 · 401 views

I am sure there are numerous factors leading to my current TG conundrum.  One I want to focus on right now involves my love for hosiery.  It may be one cause, it may THE cause.  Who knows?

I do know I absolutely love the way tights feel and look on me.  No other garment turns me on in ways that tights do, and I don't mean sexually entirely.  I admit they do provide a sexual thrill like a fetish.  I've always been attracted to women who wear hosiery, and I LOVE when my wife wears them (even if she does so reluctantly).  But there is a more powerful urge to wear them than just sexual satisfaction.  I can wear tights all night.  I own more pairs of tights than I do t-shirts and I've always been a T-shirt and jeans kind of person.  Most of my tights are black, but I also have a great variety of colored tights: gray, brown, blue, green, purple, red, teal, even a footless, a black and white striped pair and a tie-dyed pair.  I think I look great wearing shorts and tights.  I love them.  I can wear them all day and even longer sometimes.  Just something about that sleek, silky/nylon look and feel.

But I don't know when the infatuation started exactly.  That memory is long gone.  I can remember instances of swiping a pair from my mother's room or from the local drug store way back around 8th or 9th grade, but how it all started is gone now.  I can remember telling my mother about them around 1993 or so because I wanted her to buy me a pair.  She was not happy about that at all.  I remember wearing them secretly under my jeans from time to time, but never to high school.  I remember getting the nerve to wear them at a couple part-time jobs in college.  I don't think I had them on in class.  Sometime after graduation, I would wear them occassionally to work.  I was up front to a few girlfriends (including the woman who would become my wife) with no problems.  Wearing them, though, sometimes feels like an addiction.  Like the desire to would wax and wane.  Sometimes I would go for a long time without wearing them, then binge on them in some frenzied ecstacy.  There were also times when the secret felt too great.  I wanted to tell people.  I HAD to get the weight off.

All that built up to last Halloween.  The urge to come out about my tights reached a boiling point then.  I was too tired of feeling like I was afraid of what people would think.  My decision was the people I care for don't care about what I'm wearing, and if the people I don't care for have a problem, then fuck 'em.  Who's going to tell a guy 6'0" and about 250lbs. what to wear.  The decison was made.

I went in to work on Halloween dressed in shorts & tights making some lame excuse because it was a costume day.  Some people laughed, but not in a teasing way.  It was how I tested the waters.  Finally, I came out to close friends.  Guess what?  They didn't care what I wore to work.  My reputation was already solid.  As long as I could perform well, my wardrobe was not a concern to anyone else.  The weight of dropping that 20 year secret was powerful.  I was elated! (though maybe a little too much at first.  I think I got slightly obnoxious, then toned it down)  One friend later told me I was super-geeked.

Things went that way for a few months.  Getting to wear tights openly without jeans was like fulfilling a life-long ambition.  I was freed.  Too bad it didn't end there.  Shortly after coming out, I started shaving my legs to get the full effect.  My wife was not thrilled.  She supported my decision, but does not like the look at all, especially in public.  Shaving my legs, she said once, made her feel sick inside.  She said later she was getting over that.  I don't know how much I believe her.  Then about a month ago, I started wondering what skirts would be like.  I bought a couple off ebay.  They're cool.  Not as fun as I thought, but not awful either.  There is no sexual thrill with skirts quite like how tights feel.  Hell, even wearing tights regularly now has blunted their sexual impact.  I'm quite okay with that.

However, all of this really re-opened a heavy oak door long shut that contained my gender confusion.  The past couple of months I've been reliving that age-old battle over whether I am transgendered or not.  As described in my previous blog entry, that female template in my mind is back with a vengeance.  I'm really feeling a pull now.  I don't know whether loving tights are a symptom of that larger TG issue, or if I created a TG issue to disguise what's actually some form of transvestisim and a desire to be a woman so I can simply satisfy my desire to wear tights.  I just can't say right now.  I love tights.  I wear them openly.  I'm doing so right now with jean shorts.  That should be enough.  So why isn't it?  Guess that's another piece I gotta fit into this X-Files-sized puzzle.

Thanks for reading

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