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HRT - follow-up

Chrissy

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I went to see an endocrinologist on Friday after work.  A somewhat long journey out to Queens, but worth the trip.

After seeing 2 different assistants (one who was getting some additional background information, the other did some basic checking - blood pressure, heart rate, etc.), I finally saw the doctor.

I hadn't fully decided on whether or not I was going to pursue HRT when I went to see him, I wanted to see how I reacted to having an actual doctor give me information, as opposed to just doing my own research, I thought that would make it more concrete, more real.  Well, it did.  And I have to say that my mood kept getting better and better as he went on, and by the time I left his office I was feeling quite happy (when I tried to identify how I felt it took a few adjectives before I finally hit on "happy," it's not a feeling that I've experienced that much in my life, not at this level anyway).

At one point he explained that once I'm on hormones long enough I would start to be treated by doctors more as a woman - mammograms, etc.  At that point I asked if it was normal that even that made me feel happy?

Anyway, the decision still isn't made, but it feels much closer.  I have to work through the remaining fears a bit more, to make sure they're not significant enough to stand in the way.

xoxo

Christie

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eveannessant

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Christie,

I found that as soon as I had changed my name and was on homones I have been treated as female by medical staff. Yes, I got sent appointments for smear tests, breast screening etc., it made me laugh out loud, don't know how they'd do a smear test on me...................!

Yes (or should I say no!) I can't say if I was happy as a male or not, but I do feel happier as female perhaps differently, depends on what or how we each construe or define as happiness........& that's getting too philosophical for me....

Please post your performance links!

Cheers,

Eve

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Chrissy

Chrissy

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Eve,

I certainly can't say that I was never happy as a man, but there was so much more unhappiness, and a general feeling of something being not right (in some of my more depressed states I consciously thought "why can't I just be normal?" or something like that).  And I've definitely been happier since "coming out" and starting to transition.  The "malaise" that had followed me through almost my entire life lifted almost immediately and has stayed away.  I don't say that I'll never be depressed again, but it seems like it won't be as all-encompassing as it was.

xoxo

Christie

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