Very interesting. You know, sometimes I do miss the ability to be male and do male things with the guys. Of course, I wouldn't want to go back to being male. I love riding my Harley, playing poker, participating in sports and some other predominantly male activities. I've found a way to enjoy just about everything I want to do though. I just find it interesting that I'm viewed so differently being a woman participating in male dominated activities.

My experience may be a little different since I am pretty much in stealth mode. I find that I blend very well with the lesbian scene. Gay guys don't want much to do with me although I do have gay friends. And fortunately I'm able to blend into the mainstream fairly easily.

Yes Cyrsti, I do hear you. I have built a career on the man that everyone thought I was. It seems foolish to throw away a life that has brought happiness to many people. I hope everyday that I will find a way to help the people who have known me for so many years come to allow themselves to know my feminine side. I cannot deny my past, but I am definately ready to live the rest of my life as someone that I really want to be. I am trying to refine my image and still be a positive influence in the lives of the people around me. i want so much for people to accept my new name but it seems that will be easiest by meeting new people and starting over. It is quite a conflict to be living.

amie