The most traumatic experience of my life happened about a year ago. It darn near destroyed me!

For the first time in my life I was convicted of a serious crime.

I had to plead guilty to one count of attempted perjury this cost me five years of my life and $200,000.00 in restutition.

However, on the bright side it is also given me a new beginning. It is help me to become truthful about who and what I am. I intend to use this experience as a starting point in my life. I will never surrender!

People expected me to commit suicide, I even plan it out and took serious steps to achieving that goal. This conviction has cost me everything I've lost it all. The only thing I did not lose was my family they stood by me and are still standing by me.

Even the Elders in my X church; all have shunned me. This is due to two reasons, first the conviction of the crime, next coming out of the closet; letting them know I am a woman in a man's body. I understand that there believes will not let them except me. So when I say I lost it all; I mean everything monetarily and spiritually I've truly hit rock bottom. And this all happened last year. But I will never surrender nor given to feelings of worthlessness.

I guess you could say I learned the hard way through "the school of hard nocks." But then I realized this LIFE STARTS NOW!

This has now changed me for the better for now I look for the path of least resistance and get on it. I have learned to stop fighting, and start loving. I now see how love will coucur all obstacles!

I intend to use love, and spread it around just like peanut butter!!! LOL

Please understand I am not special (unique yes.) So if I can still stand after all this that has happened to me SO CAN YOU; NEVER SURRENDER!!!!

If you wish; I will be your friend, and will not abandon you I will love, and accept you just the way you are.......BEAUTIFUL.

Peace Out =^.^=