This blog is about my journey how my transtion is progressing well lousy; to sum it up in one word.

I have to remember that when you show somebody love you have to be ready for the pain of rejection.

I know that you can only control yourself and not the other person.

I'm being vague I know; this is because I have not spoken to the other person yet. Which is killing right now. I was just told she is up-set with me for some unknown reason to me? I don't even know if that true either??

Could be nothing or it could be something?? The part that hurts me the most is just hours before I sent a Email to her and exposed my heart to her.( stupid me)

Now I feel like ........you figure it out ..........how would you feel. Yep thats how I feel.

I first was going to kill Plague off forever however, I really love her a lot even if others donot. After a long walk I have decided to keep this woman around for a long while.

If somebody cannot execpt me for who I am than thats their loss not mine. This is where I draw my line in the sand.

My other problem is I really like her(as a friend) a lot; God, it would been nice to have a friend.You see I'm a people person meaning I need, and want friends to laugh with to cry with to to to to to to???????

That was odd I blanked out ( I think I'll leave it for now.) Show what a stupor I'm in.

You know what the more I keep writing this blog I see I need to drop this shovel and stop dig the hole I'm in. Now I get somewhere.Just stop till I talk with her than i'll up date this blog.

Till than be in peace of mind and heart.

Up date yep it is what I thought and I don't care HA....... I still am going to go for the good life friends....Today is a new day I face it STRONG.....Life starts NOW!!!!