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Today I found it interesting I finally think I've gone crazy.....seriously!! I used to get so upset at people who would call me names. Today I was at the grocery store and these two guys called me a FAG!!!(sorry for the use of that word.) I didn't even look at them I just started to laugh......out loud......I didn't even care.. This is not my usual response. Usually I go off on somebody who called me anything. However, these two guys just stood there and than; one of them said,"what's so funny?" I told them what you called me and I said,"it is a funny term for someone who is transgender." The one young man looked at the other and said, "whats a transgender?" the other guy said,"I learned about that in college." So we satrted to talk and as we did they found out I'm A HUMAN BEING just like them. Here is where I got stunned....They apologized, and thought I was pretty cool! All this started because I laughed at my self! Now I will try to show with words what started me to laugh out loud. they called me a Fag= gay=happy that's all it took for me to start to laugh. that's what I thought of!....LOL with me. So today I learned to laugh at my self and not take things soooo serious; unless it needs to be taken that way!! I feels pretty good just to laugh again.

Today started out not so good; first thing in the morning I got frustrated with myself! I couldnot find a dam thing GRRRRRR than thing got worse from that point! I went for my walk and almost fell flat on face,thank goodness I didnot,but I did through my back out!!! However bad the pain was I kept walking, and get more angery untill I thought about how am I going to handle this junk. I know this is going to read strange, but I let my femininity take my thought process over ....when I finally did this; something I thought I couldnot do happend I ....give up the fight, and let the frustration go. It was odd, I just started to calm down. Then half way around the park I started to feel better, and begain to enjoy me walk My goodness in fact the day turned out pretty good! Got a lot of things done and found what it was I was looking for too. This showed me that if I continue to stay clam as posable, my day may turn around 180 degrees. Before, I would have been upset all day long and never got a thing done execpt being more pist! I enjoy my jounery toward woman hood is getting fun! Please understand this is what worked for me, maybe it could work for you, and maybe not everyone different in the matter of mood changes.