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Hi everyone. I'm new to this blog stuff and sharing things. I'm FTM, a guy? I don't know all the terms I'm a man stuck in a chicks body is how i put it. Been this way since I was 4 I'm 25 currently. Have had no help, since I just started going to therpy (my theripst is pushing to get more info and get out there a little) . My family isnt really supportive. I mean we dont really talk about it but the times we did it was like why would you do that. Only person I have is my wonderful girlfriend. She supports me and wants me to be happy, however I see it. I'm not open like the other transgender people. I dont want people to know that I'm changing unless I want to tell them. This blog right here is a HUGE thing for me. I'm just not happy anymore I need help. I've been lying to people forever it seems and its awful cause I'm not really lying. I am a guy I see it everyday when I'm not feeling like crap about myself. I've lost friends, dropped out of school because a "friend" told everybody that I was a girl, and been made fun of. The people that got over it all see me as a guy now. they know, but act like its whatever. sometimes They all talk about it like its nothing and its something to me. I just want to be respected as a man and its really hard not getting that, it hurts more then anything. I don't know I'm shy and don't really know how to talk to people but I'm trying. Hit me up if you like. any info ideas support is welcome. Later