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Early August - Called ma'am yesterday - The guard corrected himself when he heard my voice. Riding in bike day tomorrow.

End of July - Rainy today - Ready to wear my women's Levi 519s stretch jeans today to all of my outings.

First July Thought -Almost Summer - Still cool here - Got a new vintage leotard yesterday - Just love the colors and the nylon feel.

Went in to a Horton's yesterday and the woman there said to me and my wife "how are you doing ladies."  I was dressed a bit feminine but not overly so.  Still being coded almost daily as a woman and I really an not trying to go out of my way to make myself look like a woman.  Dawn

I just received a gift of a new purple dress and pearl earrings.  Also I recently purchased a Victoria Secret slightly padded pink bra that I am wearing now. This was my first new dress in quite a while.  I think the fit was phenomenal.  Sung and form fitting showing some cleavage. I can really see results of the herbals and blockers I have been taking.  I only had some lip gloss on - plan to do full make up soon.  Still I was amazed at myself. And I still feel overweight.  More soon - Dawn

Winter 2011 - Happy new year all. Have some great Halloween photos of my Avatar coming soon - Called ma'am several times recently.

Oct -When on a hike as a girl - No one made notice - Of course this is what I hope for.

Sept - Back from the States - Nothing else exciting to say.

Repeated to be on top. I was just thinking back today about how confident I was after having this particular salon makeover. Hair, brows and toes (Late Sept)  With only adding a bit of lip gloss I felt like a woman all day and went out and walked around the farmers market knowing that in everyone's mind they only saw a lovely woman.  In fact I barely noticed anyone checking me out at all.  I was just blending in and I was not nervous at all that I would/could possibly be mis-read as a male.  It is days like these that make me wish I could be a woman forever.

Sorting through all of my Florida photos - quite an exciting story to share - a whole week feeling like and presenting myself as a woman - more to share soon.  Dawn

Have been so focusing on my expanding developing chest that I almost missed my expanding hips.  Here is a current photo.  Dawn

My wife today told me my breasts looked huge and wanted to make sure I had on one of my better support bras on when I went out to go on a bike ride.  The herbals have really worked.  Will post a photo soon - Dawn

A wonderful day at the salon - To get ready, I had shaved down my legs and arms, did a manicure and was wearing one of my favorite bra and panty sets, had on Ylang Austral Givenchy Perfume and also did a very light bit of makeup. I was also wearing a great looking colorful top and purple hot pants. My Stylist said well look at you when I came in and told me she would make me beautiful. Firstly she selected me a woman's cape with high hills logos on it for my spa salon experience, She did a wonderful pedicure with sparkles and blue coats, waxed my eyebrows and gave me a wonderful feminine hair trim and color. My hair is now getting long enough to go down my back. What a wonderful day of woman pleasures for me.

Ran 5 miles near home showing off my new jogging outfit; great fitting Danskin bra top with matching purple running shorts.  Love to present myself as the woman I feel myself to be. Dawn

Was sighing up for a sporting event today and before I spoke up I was directed to the womens packet pickup.

Just back from a trip to North Dakota - When on a run and hike in the Badlands.  Can really see my pony tail and my purple running outfit. So Much fun. 

Today was a milestone - 8,000 people have viewed my page/s.

Today was a milestone - 8,000 friends/people have viewed my page/s.

Got to 140 last week - Only a couple pounds to go. Losing weight seems to take forever.

Called a lady at a running expo - I think both my hair and body contributed to the comment as I was wearing normal male clothing.

Was with a girls running group the other day and I had a person come over to me and call me Lana twice. Still not trying to dress as a girl - but believed to be one.

Have been following all the Jenner news.  This has stirred some of my recent thinking.  What is the core of why we have our feelings and want so much to change.  I think there is a certain desire to see ourselves as beautiful.  Women express this better than almost all men.  When I put on a dress I feel changed.  When I see other men I see most of them as lazy/unkempt, fat/heavy and scuzzy.  This is the excepted image of most men.  I do not fit this image and I know I am stared at a lot by other men, usually in restrooms, who do not expect a beautiful looking man.  When I look beautiful (Handsome) day-to-day, I am often mistaken for a girl, even when in unisex or masculine clothing.  I usually do not go out of my way but I am well groomed, very tan, fit and now have longer styled blond hair.  I think some of why I wish I could change is rooted in the concept of beauty - and if men could also be beautiful in what is currently a woman's norm early in life - I think fewer would be unhappy with their body image and fewer would want to change.  Here is another thought.  I think is more acceptable to be changed completely into a woman than it is to dress and adorn ones self in a similar fashion.  Yes, I would love to wear a colorful attractive dress and show off my small waist and still not try to hide that I have a somewhat feminine looking male body.  However, I feel less anxiety when I go through the complete effort of hiding any maleness as I look completely like a woman.  Also, I actually feel safer in woman mode as I do not see myself as a homosexual; not wishing for men to lust for me in this fashion.

Just yesterday I was at a hotel getting ready for a swim meet the next day; arms and legs shaved, very tan, wearing sandels and very short denim shorts, wearing my now longer ponytail, and the desk clerk called me mam twice.  Was not trying to disquise my voice at all but did not seem to matter.  He even opened the door for and would have helped me with my bags if I had not told him I could do this without his help.  Boy this made me feel quite feminine.

Longer shoulder length hair - let it all out last night - called mam twice last night at a restaurant we were going to.  I guess I cannot dress male eneough as my hair and face lead people to think of me as female.

Here is my blue suit.   Because it is a size 12 it may be a bit snugger and the blue seems to bring more attention to below my waist.  With a fitness skirt I have the blue suit may be still the best - it may work really well.  Opinions please.  I may post a video of one of my suits soon; just made 4 - three in blue suit and one in the purple suit.  Opinions and comments please - I really want a fun and uneventful day at the beach - feeling, looking and being a woman. 20 days until Florida. Dawn

My Latest Salon Experience.

Today was my final run to the salon I go to - as after today - it is closed due to the Virus Concerns.  But what a great experience I had today.  Putting the main phrase up front about how well I passed at the salon my stylist in her parting comment to me knowing that I would be at home a lot in the next few days; was that she "did not want me to come back pregnant."  Currently this is not possible, but she did have me walking out of the salon looking very much the lady.   I had everything done today almost like a fire sale because I would be one of her last customers for a currently unknown period of time.  Anyway I just had gotten a new set of lady's glasses made that I was wearing for the first time and I was not wearing a single item of menswear.  Yes, I had on a teal nice bra and some flowery lingerie beneath my women's sports wear.  I also had on some of my favorite perfume. 

Before I went my wife had told me to have a wonderful girls experience at the salon.  So I had a manicure, a pedicure, my brows waxed and my hair cut and colored in a feminine style.  My stylist told me I was "beautiful" as I left, she actually appears to delight in making me look feminine, and most of those in the salon did not blink an eye as most of them believed me to be a woman; really.  Also - I have to admit she likes showing her muscles to me that are maybe a couple of inches larger than my soft arms. Then she said she was worried for me as I looked so beautiful that she thought I might be pregnant (Yes me) when we next see each other.  I am actually thinking I will go in when I next get to see her and maybe pad my middle a bit, for a joke on her. 

The colors she got me for my manicure and pedicure she was calling "the pandemic."  I really mean this in a good way - in fun - but I do realize this is also a very serious. Attached are a few photos of my nails hair, and glasses and a new swimsuit and surf coverup shirt my wife helped me pick out for a future trip to the beach.  

Anyway today for me was a fun day - Still I am concerned for everyone as we go into a lock down to keep people safe during this national crisis/pandemic. 

Dawn

30,000 views of my page - so super - I just wish I could hug everyone - but of course there is this virus to deal with.   Here is my latest photo/s.  Dawn

I am adding a blog item about Halloween Costumes.  Please join me there.

Today I was running with a local women's running group and one of the Gals I run with said I "you should enter the Olympic Trials as a woman."  I believe she knows I am transgender as I usually dress unisex or gender female when I run with them.  I told her that it is difficult to make the trials at any level even if I was to be able to make the women standards.  (I was also thinking I would have to have a completed a sex change) The discussion was very telling as I know many of my run group see me as just another a woman running with them.   Just added a photo from yesterday walking a path with my Nordic Poles.