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cross2play : (25 November 2014 - 06:50 PM) And subscribe so I can make more videio's :)
cross2play : (25 November 2014 - 06:47 PM) jennifer38 watch my youtube channel - its exactly for conflicting self's!
EmmaSweet : (25 November 2014 - 04:42 PM) I'd found it this morning in the Hurfington Post and added it as a comment to my blog post on depression and suicide: http://www.huffingto...lar,transgender
CharityLynnC... : (25 November 2014 - 04:35 PM) yw ... postively trans facebook group  posted this and ive been posting this everywhere i can
UsernameOpti... : (25 November 2014 - 04:16 PM) A big thanks to Charity Lynn for finding this website.  We have added this link to the list of online resources in the Mental Health and Crisis Intervention forum.   As always, if you or someone you know is in IMMEDIATE danger of harm, dial 911 or the emergency number in your area.
CharityLynnC... : (25 November 2014 - 01:24 PM) if you know anyone in the transgender community who is feeling suicidal..please give them this website that has a  number they can call for help. http://www.translifeline.org/
jennifer38 : (25 November 2014 - 11:54 AM) I got my blog up and running!  Hallelujah!
jennifer38 : (25 November 2014 - 10:49 AM) I've been trying, all day, to start a blog.  I created it, but I can't find where to type the main text of my entries.  For now, I seem to have the easiest time with the shoutbox.  I know I'm heard, here, for sure, and I can easily find other stuff I've already typed, here.
CharityLynnC... : (25 November 2014 - 10:23 AM) transgender suicide hotline has arrived for those in need. http://www.translifeline.org/
EmmaSweet : (25 November 2014 - 07:21 AM) Hi Jennifer, I suggest you start a blog on this topic and any others that you have now or later. I'm sure there are people here, like me, who would be happy to help however we can.
pushkal : (25 November 2014 - 05:34 AM) Hello to all
jennifer38 : (25 November 2014 - 04:36 AM) Good morning all.  Its after 7 AM Eastern.  Cold weather's coming back to PA.  Yuck.  Anyway, in response to someone I read, I would like to start a thread on my unique issues.  I wonder if this is what intersexed is.  When setting up my account, I wasn't sure which gender option to choose.  All I know is, I want to honestly state my true physical makeup as a man, but just as honestly confess my internal female feelings.  I've always wanted to meet other people in my exact situation.  I trust I am not alone in this, and this forum is a great way to vent these feelings I cannot just tell anyone.  At least I shouldn't be criticized or judged for this.  I'd certainly get it if I told family and church members.  I've hinted at it to my family, but I definitely did not go into all the vivid detail like I'm doing here.
pushkal : (25 November 2014 - 02:09 AM) I had purchased The Ultimate Genital Hiding Gaff Pink "Satin"
pushkal : (24 November 2014 - 11:25 PM) I want to appear in public as transgender
UsernameOpti... : (24 November 2014 - 10:39 PM) Hello jennifer38, and welcome.  Perhaps you would consider starting a thread on this topic - there may be others who encounter the same issues.
jennifer38 : (24 November 2014 - 07:57 PM) Here's where things get tricky.  I like my short hair and men's clothes, but my inner self feels feminine, and it is for that reason I crave the right to use ladies' bathrooms.  My inner and outer selves are constantly at war.  I've been deathly afraid to openly tell anybody outside the TG community.  I'm glad I can open up, here.  Please, any ladies on here, talk to me when you can.  I'd like that.
PamalaFlinn : (24 November 2014 - 07:57 PM) Sometimes it is better to bite the upper lip and give the flies the honey . You will be better off in the long run . Stand clear flies for the future may hold new truths.
PamalaFlinn : (24 November 2014 - 07:52 PM) One's most inner instincts must be trusted.
PamalaFlinn : (24 November 2014 - 07:46 PM) Can one carry a relationship with someone they have never met in person ; To build , grow , and flourish . One
jennifer38 : (24 November 2014 - 07:41 PM) Hi, everyone.  I;m new at this.  I am a man on the outside, but a girl inside.  I'm 38 and I've been blind all my life.  I fit in the category of non-op.  In the real world, I am forced to be a man, but on here, I'm glad I can be one of the ladies.  I am glad I found this site.  After several attempts, I finally was able to create my account.  Perseverance pays off.  Anyway, I'm glad to be on here.  I am glad I can declare myself TG based on feelings.  I can forget about the external for a while.





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Posted by PlagueBubonic , 31 December 2011 · 84 views

Yep, it is the end of the year; Wow! Am I glad it is over! What a year I had. I got into legal trouble, lost my house, trucks and have to pay $200,000.00 restitution; Oh yes can't forget 5 years probation, and you have to pay that bill too.
I'm telling you, if this is not enough; then add the fact I have to live with in-laws for a while....
Pass the bullet! Please.
At my age most people are look'n ahead to the golden years. I'm look'n for a box, a hole,and dirt!
This year I also, decided to stop hidding my true self...that's right, Out I Came! No more closet time!!
This is the best thing I did all year long; for now no more secrets, and sneaking around,finally!
So for me this is a very special New Year....Life Starts Now!!!
I'm hoping, and praying this year, will be my year of mercy, love,and courage.  I'm going to need all three from what I understand.  Researching transition, and seeing the brave people that have come before me I can see this is not an easy path.  But good things don't come easy, it takes effort, and strength.
I'm so happy that I foundTGGuide, and made some friends too.  I also have a psychiatrist and she's wonderful, helpful and very understanding.
I can't wait to find a transgender support group they have called me, and I look forward to meeting them soon.  So things are starting to come together; the material stuff can be replaced, that did not define me, nor make me a better person.
However, my being true to myself will, Yes it will!
Make me a better person, inside and, to be around.
Now I'm not going to lie, because this is a new beginning; that means there are losses involved.  I've lost friends, family, and my gender identity; which was wrong anyway.
So this is my starting point; this is a fresh start! I know I'm going to gain everything back plus more.  It may just take a while, but that's what I have plenty of time!  So yes indeed this is going to be a new year for me, and I look forward to it, a brand new frontier!  This is probably why I can face this year coming up with a huge smile on my face, and in my heart.  I have no fear, I have to get past that so love can occupy,and fill my heart.  This is how I choose to face the new year, I know that blessings lie ahead; I'm just so excited!  To see how this year turns out, but for now I'll have to take it one step at a time; one day at a time and keep a song in my heart, and a smile on my face.
I will not surrender! To the negative side of my thinking. Peace Out!! =^.^=




Sounds like you have the right attitude and you're doing all the right things. Hang in there girl! :)  And be sure to let us know how things are going for you. It gets better!
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