I have been on spiro for five or 6 months...I have to start taking estrogen soon so I don't get osteoporosis...the other option is going off spiro but I don't want to go back to producing testosterone...I'm scared and alone
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does anybody have good advice for beard shaving...is it best to use razor and cream or electric razor ...i also use a concealer to hide my beard and its okay but im self conscious...what shaving products are best...thx karen
I showed a lady at work pics of me as Karen and she was very supportive ....it depresses me so much to walk through Target as a male and want to comfortably shop for female clothes but don't bc im too scared to be seen by someone I know or judged by others I don't. sometimes I feel like crying right there in the store...anybody else go thru this. hope everybody is doing good..
im 45 born in 1966. from 1985 to 2009 my sex life was a lie....I had many female partners but the only way I could orgasm during intercourse was to pretend my penis was my vagina rubbing up against theirs. I stopped trying to get female sex partners the past couple years under those false pretenses and for that im happy but I also barely to never haven sex anymore. I love sex with women tho for other reasons related to being trans I guess and I also fantasize about having sex with straight men as a woman.
Today I feel good...dressed as Karen and just doing stuff around my apartment ....enjoying watching the games too....having some problems posting a comment to my last blog so I say thanks to all who responded...also to michael I say we are fine tuning the worksheet each week to make it most useful to me and soon others. I wish all of u joy and peace (of mind and body). dont forget to follow me on twitter at twitter.com/dannyozark and if u do let me know u found out bout me on tgguide.com
I am in the process of devising a really cool worksheet with my therapist to track and grade my efforts in my transformation process ...this is necessary bc left to my own devices I will procrastinate and mess up despite how I feel inside ...the goal is to become the CEO of me becoming Karen and I have to take responsibility and have accountability ... hope you all are doing well ...bye Karen
Last night I shaved my legs for the first time...it was actually my gender psychologists's suggestion as a way for me to begin relating to Karen more and spending quality time with "her/me." I loved the experience and wish it was something I've been doing for a lot longer. I tried to do a good job of it and I hope to get better. I also shaved my toes, butt and genital area...felt like I should have gone all the way but it was enough to start. I am really glad I did this. It may seem like small beans to more seasoned trans women but it was a great experience for me.
I only have one wig and even my psychiatrist says I should have more. I'm so nervous about buying clothes and accesories and being caught by people I know. Most of the saleswomen i deal with in stores are pretty cool though. Very soon for so many reasons I am going to have to swallow my pride and show more courage for my true self. if i am nervous about this kind of stuff how do i expect to handle the ridicule people will direct at me when I am transitioning outwardly/publically?
Last night was strange...usually dressing makes me feel more relaxed, but instead i was having a mini panic attack and my leg was shaking and heart beat increased. I think it is because the mental aspects of my gender therapy are becoming more intense and ground breaking-- so there is increased fear for me. As always, I hope to gain more courage like so many of you on this site have been able to exhibit.