Today Was a good day, came out to a dear friend and. Still have and probably will for a while have some ups and down with the wifey mainly because the fear of loosing her man but hey she's gaining a woman. I know i need to assure her that I am not going anywhere and I will always be here. This blog will be full of our thoughts about transition. I made the appointment today to get hormones. I am debating wether or not to start them before or after our month long vacation before Christmas and new year. I think I would like to start them as soon as I get them but L is afraid I will ruin the Holidays with teenage puberty. I don't think I will, I think it could be a beautiful time with the Children and L in the mountains as I begin the journey to womanhood. I actually felt a flutter in my stomach after the appointment as made. I think its really going to happen and I am going to free the inner Beauty I used to call her Erica when I was younger but I have found it easier to go by DEE DEE since those are my initials. whichever name I choose to keep is our decision and no one else. I will be happy when I have breast growth and when my hair and face are more feminine and I will be so thrilled the day I can have this headache removed from between my legs. That day will come. I know it will. I hate my male genitals; I have hated them for years. They serve a purpose and that was to make babies and we did we made 2 awesome boys. Daddymommy needs to be freed of the enslavement of this meat mass. this is just how I am feeling today. I sure hope L post something later.