So where do I start? So many things have changed for me the last few months.
So 3 weeks ago I came out to my massage therapist. She was so cool about. She ask lots of good questions and was over all very interested in it all. That was all cool in and of it self, but when I saw her the next time she talk to me as if we were girlfriends, I felt so accepted as a woman. It was fabulous.
Then later that week I was having my second laser hair removal on my face, The woman who did the treatment I'd come out to her the first treatment. So when the treatment was over we were chatting, I commented on the necklace she had on how pretty it was. She asked if I wanted to try it on.When I put it on she said looks good on you keep it, it yours.
Then yesterday I had my makeup done for the first time. Okay let me clarify I had my makeup done lots and lots of times. But that had always been when I thought I was a crossdresser. Yesterday was the first time I ever had my makeup done as women, meaning thinking of myself as woman. You may not think that's a big deal, but it was, to me at least. I always loved getting my makeup done. But yesterday it felt so much better.(I didn't have the feeling in the back of my head WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!?) It was wonderful.
So the big that's changed for me, is how a feel. 1) that I have come to terms with the fact I am a transgender woman. 2) that gilt, and shame are a lot less, I no longer think I'm some sort of sick pervert. I am just a woman, doing things that women do.
There a part of me that want to just come out and say this is me take it or leave it, if you don't want to be my friend any more, that's cool. I still need to be who I'm, if you change your mind you know where to find me.