Got asked about documentation my mom couldn't find, so I handed her what I stored away in the safe. After finding the documents, I reiterated that it might be difficult to do what she wants as my gender marker and first name are being changed slightly. And all I got was, it's your life and your problem when I'm dead. I've always known my support came from my father, so with the lack of support from the one we call Hammie (what my siblings and I call our mother). But I also know, that out of
Why tears. Well I've always been an emotionally strong woman. Yes, strong as in vocalizing what I think and how I do thigs, as well as not needing a Knight to save me I can save him too... I'm a fighter after all. Well in the last month I've been disciplined for not informing my commander about a lone child on street late at night! I asked if that wasn't part and parcel of my work to serve and protect, and if so. Give me a written instruction stating I should leave a defenseless five year
Generally Speaking No matter if you CIS, Trans, Gay, Lesbian, Bi, Queer. All of us went through the phase of exploration. Be it to discover your gender or sexuality or which careers we wanted to follow, because you don't look, behave or think like everyone else you talk to. Sometimes, not even your parents have an answer for you, make that most of the times. And when you finally got an answer from somewhere, it takes us all different timeframes to accept or initiate the change we so desire
Have I ever said I'm one of the numbskulls that don't understand flirting when it's directed at me... WELL I AM THE WORST KIND IN HISTORY. Let me start by saying this wasn't my intentions. Okay, I thing I had a massive undertone of want you. But I ever said it directly or even partially or remotely in person... Am I even remotely upset that he found out. Not in the least' so wanted im to be single and focussed on me, oh well NOT YET. I am kinda disappointed in the fact that I didn't hide
Even people. Clearly this is a clothes issue. Yes, 137Lbs almost 138Lbs have a problem with certain clothes. Not a problem buying. No women can't tell me how a shop or card works. Todays issue is getting in my clothes. As I previously informed you, I was on a physical course and seemed like I lost weight. Not the case. Weird right. Today, I grab a jeans, 32inches, and the bugger didnt want to go over my bum. My lady humps were in the way of my jeans. I pulled harder, and what I on
I went for a Tactical Survival Techniques course last week. Before going I was warned that a specific instructor would be harder on me because I'm from his previous station and had harsh words with him. Yes, I had harsh words with him, but I helped him with things he couldn't do, so would he truly be a dick to me. And the answer is kinda. Kinda, because he made me take the biggest tyre and run with it. My first request was a smaller tyre, he said no and I'd understand later why he said so
Because of discussions on how Trans and the general LGBTI community gets treated in by medical staff, police, well government employees, hasn't made me think of this all that much. Because I've always been treated with a certain level of respect and dignity, which I always needed to earn or demand.
I'm also a government employee as you all know, so this shocked me when my group had to deal with a M2F that didn't pass. This poor teenaged girl was treated absurdly and persecuted even more so
I clearly don't need to go, but I somehow have decided that 35 might be the year things slow down for me.
I eat half of what I used to, sometimes anything from 25% and up and I'm filled.
Lets rather say, I also started a relationship which I need to end on one or two levels. Therefore I will either just say Gym, which means sex, and Go or Going to the Gym, which has the meaning of the words to exercise.
GYM
What I like about it is, I've finally started enjoying it, so my hiatus from A
Quite frankly a birthday has never been at the top of my to do list, unless the list is on how to evade a birthday.
Today, Thursday 2015-02-26, I turned 35 years old. This Capetonian trans lady sometimes, grabs the bull by its horns, make that balls. And then there are days that started off like today, I cried and just couldnt understand why.
Now most of the times when I go through this day, I cant wait for it to be over. Like today, so a normal day that I hate this day. One, I was bor
Well, each year this time I'm faced with the same feelings and emotions, that got amplified after my father passed away.
February strikes, everything seems fine, and as the nears the last week emotions run wild, literally and figuratively.
Okay, my birthday and I have never seen eye to eye. Yes, I know it's just a day, but somehow it manages to find a way to screw me over.
This years isn't so big, but I can't find a place with available space, so romantic weekend away is spoilt.
To
The police haven't sent me on training in while, and here its for the newest entry at work.
So having had training in Shotguns, R5 Assault Rifles, RAP401 and Piettro Beretta Mod92 9mm Pistols a decade back, was like funny to for me the only girl with the hard ass guys I work with and some men I can sneeze over. 5 minutes later firearm training over, I know my firearm, so off to the shooting range. Why didn't you train the other stations people. This guy looks like he is afraid in front of
Having never been in hiding, I cant say how it feels to have come out to the world. It's in your face obvious that I'm special and unique. And this package is a police official too. So lete go through a decade of trials and tribulations in an organization that is male orientated with almost no ability to change.My decade started off with bam, because not only was I attacked and attempted to convince me that I'm wrong in who I am and portray. Gloating to everyone that she has put me in my pla
