Hi Christie,

So glad you are writing this, it very much reminds me of my own recent experiences, even though they are relatively recent, they now seem far off.

I also had feelings of being male the female just like the tide ebbing and flooding, but the male feelings (which also gave uncertainty) started to get fewer and further between.

Are you on hormones and anti-androgens yet?

I found that after 2 years of oestrogen it was a slow and gradual process of riding myself of the alternating male and female feelings, after starting anti-androgens the process has quickened quite markedly and I no longer have any male feelings, and I feel totally normal as Eve, I also like the way my female identity has grown with my preferring to express myself as a female professional with an smart office look rather than the overtly girlish leather minis, and boots that I started out with 3 years ago.

Good luck with your shopping, but remember the little signifiers such as jewllery, they make such a difference. Pearls never seem to go out of fashion and give such an up-market look ,when worn with classy clothes, and a nice perfume such as Giorgio (the yellow one!).

Cheers and hugs,

Eve

Thank you both for your comments :-)

When I use "cross-dressing" now I'm only referring to the time when I was dressing as a woman before "coming out" as TG. It is true of course that I was TG even before coming out, so it really wasn't cross-dressing even then, but it's an easy way to distinguish those time periods and the mental state that I was in during both (feeling like a man dressing as a woman vs just being dressed).

I am getting more and more stressed that I still at times have to dress male - my current wardrobe isn't sufficient yet to go all female, and money is a little tight (though now that taxes are done I'll start having some room, and I'm getting a better idea of things that I need sooner).

I haven't started hormones yet. I start with a new gender therapist today, so I am going to raise that, to at least start discussing it. Then I assume I'll need to see my regular doctor to talk about it with him as well (I've been going to him for a long time now, so I'm comfortable with how he'll be about this).

One thing I can't seem to find anywhere is exactly how hormones are taken? Do you have to keep using them periodically for some amount of time? (I assume yes, I just don't know how often and for how long)

Jewelry is my "project" for this weekend. I have some that I've assembled specifically for doing drag, but I'm going to look through it all to see what I can incorporate now.

XOXO

Christie

Veronica,

First thank you :-)

And I love the "I'm not quite done baking yet" line, that's great!

I did some more Kohl's shopping yesterday, and plan to go to Century 21 tomorrow at lunch, so hopefully by next week I'll be able to go en femme at least most days even to work.

Outside of work I also love women's jeans and capris! I have a full stock of JLo jeans.

I think I might underestimate how feminine I'm already appearing - it's so hard to be objective about yourself (looking in the mirror, even when I'm in full drag, I still see me, so it's obviously a matter of seeing me as a woman)

xoxo

Christie