pressing on...
By Chrissy
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Hi everyone,
Just a quick update - on Wednesday my therapist said she would write the letter I need for the endocrinologist, and I have an appointment to see him on August 6 (I made the appointment before having the letter knowing that there would be some lag before I could actually get an appointment, he's apparently very busy). I know there are some tests they'll have to do first, but my medical history at least doesn't seem to have any counterindicators to HRT. So I'm hopeful that by mid to late August I'll have started.
Every thought that I have about it is positive - it makes me feel happy, content, sometimes excited - never hesitation. I think having some time pass since the school-wide announcement went out, and the fact that I'm presenting more and more female, has allayed much of the fear that I felt earlier. It's gotten to the point where it's strange to hear or use my prior name! (I'm also starting to look into a legal name change).
One thing that I'm a little hung up on right now is rest rooms. The schools position is simply that I should use whichever rest rooms I feel are appropriate. The problem is that I still feel like I'm presenting somewhere in the middle, so I think I feel a little uncomfortable using either! (they are planning to add a gender-neutral rest room, which I'd probably start using until I feel that I sufficiently "pass"). Then of course there are rest rooms in other places! Ugh. Interestingly, the bar that I often go to recently moved (and changed it's motif a bit - it's now officially a "drag bar"), and they now have "Men" and "Women" on their restrooms, which they didn't at the previous location! It seems like step backwards to me :-)
That's where I am now - I have a few more days off before going back to work, a little more time for introspection before rejoining the working world!
xoxo
Christie
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