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Coming to an end


KarenPayne

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Well 2015 is coming to a close, have squeezed a lot into this year in regards to surgeries, lots of paperwork and a brand new car and very satisfied with the results. Four years ago this was entirely a dream, seemingly out of reach because I could not give up what I had in regards to teaching self-defense but then realized that I had crammed many years into teaching and as much as I enjoyed teaching I could finally kiss it goodbye to make myself happy overall.

My guess is that many wrestle with similar aspects when they are certain that transitioning is right for them and hope that those riding the line, struggling with making the decision to move forward do so and don't procrastinate but instead stall progress if they feel as I did, unsure what the future might be. For many uncertainty is "will I still have a job", "acceptance from family and friends", "emotional battles from waiting" etc.

I know my surgery was right from many telling me I look content, smile (was told I rarely smiled) often, love female privilege, learning to leave male privilege behind as if I never had them.

I do struggle with silly things like being able to play guitar with decent length nails, changing pads often when wearing a thong (took a long time to master the back end of the pad), what clothes should I wear today (and rummage through through clothes on the floor often rather than the closet), did I wear that outfit already this week?

My taste in movies has change, last night I watched "the age of Adaline" which I would had never watched two years ago but now would even consider purchasing it. I watched it for a dollar so even if I didn't like it no big deal.

I experience life completely different emotionally both good and bad. There are day that all I want to do is stay in bed and most times have no clue why while 99 percent of the time I am very happy.

Still more attracted to females than males and there has been several times in the past few months I was putty to both genders.

I am fully embracing life both good and bad and excited for what comes next.

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Hopefully 2016 can live up to the example 2015 left ^_^

Speaking of doing things with nails, I recently bowled for the first time with long nails, broke 3 of them. I might never bowl again ;)

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Hopefully 2016 can live up to the example 2015 left ^_^

Speaking of doing things with nails, I recently bowled for the first time with long nails, broke 3 of them. I might never bowl again ;)

​Since I have gone to longer nails I went from shellac to acrylic which are so much stronger then shellac. I pay 20 dollars for regular nail treatment, 35 for shellac and 45 for acrylic. Just had them done in acrylic with a twist, french style where the white part was pure acrylic white and was very cool process, took just over one hour. Now and then I will cut my nails down and go with a regular treatment but that has been a while. My main reason for stronger nails was at least three times I broke my right thumb nail closing my car trunk. Since moving up have not broken a single nail.

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Hiya Karen. You have become the most Beautiful, Pretty, Gorgeous Lady. Your Kindness, Care, and Love , that You show Us All on here, is so very much appreciated. Karen, I hope that Your Saturday Car Club drives, are going well. Karen, A Very Merry Christmas, And A Very Happy New Year for 2016 Young Lady. Good Health, And Every Happiness, You deserve it Karen. Take Care, And My Very Best Wishes, Love Stephanie. xxxx 

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Hiya Karen. I have Not said anything that is Not true. If I look half as good as You, at thethe eventual end of My Transition, I will be more than Happy ! If I made You blush, well there we are. L.O.L. Karen Take Care. With My Very Best Wishes, Love Stephanie. xx

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