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I found her!


Cyrsti

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How many years and tears have passed before she walked out of my head and into the world?

Trial and error, starting and stopping and above all else? Observation!

How many thousands of times do we read you must dress to blend and dress your age. Blah, blah blah. We must dress to be us and I'm in my 40's.

I'm a faithful reader of many of the fashion mags and the excerpts we see on line. The bottom line in most age related fashion tips is you wear what is you. If you can incorporate different fashion items from different age groups into your style...then it makes you who you are.

My biggest compliment comes from a woman giving me that "you bitch" look. She is not reading me, she is judging me because my hair is too long or I might be wearing too much makeup. It is not my problem if she can't or won't take the time to take care of herself and her biggest thrill of the day will come in the produce section.

I found the women of my age category who "put themselves together" are out there and I love them!

I can never hope to be as knock down sexy as the "Jamie's" of the world with her book on passing.

But I can hope to be me and move confidently through situations I only dreamed of attempting years ago.

In those moments all the error of trial and error becomes worth it!

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Interesting blog post Crysti. Thanks for sharing it.

I remember early in transition having to relearn the nonverbal communication that goes on between women and men, based on your gender presentation. At first I considered the possibility that I was being read by women but then I discovered that women often look at each other either admiringly or sometimes with a touch of jealousy or contempt.

It was also interesting how men and women exchange those quick little glances to check each other out. I learned very quickly not to make eye contact or look too long at another woman's man.

If we pay attention, there is a lot to be learned from the nonverbal communication that goes on between men and women in our society. Much of it is based on gender roles and the social norms on how to relate to each other.

I did my best to learn from the nonverbal communication and figure out how I could best fit in.

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Hi!

I think the most powerful communication I've learned is the total non verbal eye contact that women use.

I have not experienced the looking at the man glance but have many times been included in the "that guy's an idiot" look.

More importantly my bartender friends are very protective of me (thank god) and I get the "are you OK? look.

Verbally some will tell me when I use a "male" descriptor or sentence.

Fascinating!

Thanks Admin!

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I agree with your comments. The best advice I have received so far from someone was recently from my father he said "just be yourself". Isn't that what many people have said to each other over the years. If someone means the words "be yourself" than the world needs to realize what it takes sometimes to be "one's self" it may mean breaking the fashion rules, and so what? Go for it!

My mother died five years ago and for me becoming more feminine each day helps me cope with her death in a very mysterious way. She was a wonderful mother and a well liked and classy woman, I so much feel the world still needs someone like her around.

Amie

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Amie

The mother connection with kids like us is a great avenue to explore. I've done a small post about it on another site. I'll bring it over for your comments. Thanks so much.

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