After my last post, I have been trying to go out more and live my life as a woman and probably some of the most amazing things started to happen. First I started a video blog on youtube and I figured to myself that no one would watch it at all. To my shock and suprise I had a 100 people view it in the first two days. I almost jumped when I saw that. I've had a few people even subscribe to my channel so yay me. Its really started to make me feel better about myself.

Next I have been living most of my life as a woman. I went grocery shopping later on in the day and had a great time. I know your probably thinking that im nuts cuz no one has fun grocery shopping, but I did cuz I was dressed and no one was giving me funny looks or saying nasty things to me or anything like that. Later at the cash register the young man working the register looked at me and without missing a beat he ask "Is plastic ok ma'am?" there was no stutter or hesitation or anything in his voice, he didn't look uncomfortable or anything. He just acted like I was another woman shopping for food.

This whole experience has made me think that itll be a lot easier to transition than I thought. I just started my electrolysis and haven't even started hormones but yet people are still calling me miss and ma'am and I love it. Its really brought me out of a funk. The next thing I want to try to do is live an entire week as a female. Never changing out for any reason. I think the more I do that, the more confidence I will really begin to build in myself and really give me more of a drive to continue my transition.

The only hurdle I still see myself having is the money issue. I know everyone has issues with it and everyone else has loans, credit card debt, car payments, and everything else under the sun. Ive just been trying to figure out the best way to accumulate money while still paying for everything I need. I'm nervous that I won't have enough money when it comes to my doctors appointment in august or not have enough money for hormones. I know I can keep my job for almost a year after starting hormones, unless I am a rare case where my breasts grow at a rediculous rate. I think that while waiting for my body to develope a female form, I can grow my hair to my desired length.

Anyways thanks for reading my blog, I'll post something else fairly soon. I am working on two books at the moment. Maybe that would be a way to really get some money coming in. The first is a teenage love story about a boy and girl (boy kinda based on how i was growing up sans the gid) and the other book is a biography on me and my transitioning experience.

Tiff