All right!!! I think I'm getting it now. Thanks, Emma. Jenny's blog is up and running. I am very grateful I found this place where I can escape my manhood and be one of the girls a while. I am just going to write random thoughts, whatever is pressing on my mind at the time. Since I'm new at this site, I will allow my first entry to be a sort of intro. In the real world, I am a man, but I've always felt like a girl on the inside, and I'm deathly afraid to tell my family and church members outright. At least I won't be judged or criticized, on here. I like my short hair and men's clothing, and I do not want to wear makeup. I don't want to keep on pretending my inner woman doesn't exist, either, and so joining this site is allowing me to express these internal feelings like I never have before. I've begged and begged Jesus Christ to take this cup of internal female feelings from me, but they persist just as my blindness continues, for I was born blind, 38 years ago. In spite of this, I will keep looking to Jesus for my help, and while I wait for Him, I will just have to be honest with Him and myself. For this reason, I must be glad I found this site and I am learning about it as I go. I feel like I already made a friend on here, and I want to be as much help as possible. If you were to see me, you'd see a man, but my inner man feels womanly, hence the reason I am signed in here, obviously using a girl's name, unlike in the real world, where I fear judgment and condemnation. god knows my heart and how I've prayed and fasted for years, and still feel no relief. Yet, I cannot keep pretending to be comfortable in men's restrooms. I'm just glad that there is a TG category called non-op, because I don't want to be cut on, and I couldn't afford it, anyway. Anyway, that's enough rambling for now. I will write, later.