I had a conversation with my wife last night about the possibility of going SCUBA Diving again (I used to be an Instructor back in my male days 4 years or so ago), my wife said that she'd like to do that, we talked about our favourite shore dive in the UK, with fond reminisances. I'm not sure if we'll actually get around to doing it though, as we both have other interests that compete for our spare time now.

But later in the night when I couldn't sleep (red wine induced insomnia!), I looked back at my past male life, and came to the conclusion that I had simply used up all my maleness too soon! I was pretty full on at it. In my late teens and twenties I was a semi-outlaw biker, yes I had been involved in acts of gratuitous violence on occassions but most of the time smoking a certain kind of cigarette if you catch my gist, we also had a lot of a certain kind of fungus growing locally ! (funny that this fungus has since been made illegal in the UK!), I grew up a bit in my late 20's and by my early 30's became involved with SCUBA Diving, this was great fun, fast boats a dive into a different world and lots of gratuitous consumption of Alcohol afterwards (yes we all knew that we shouldn't be drinking, but what the hell), I also became a Commercial Diver too, we call them dope on a rope in the UK ! (For those of you who don't know, a commercial diver is mostly an underwater labourer in the inshore sector of UK Commercial diving). I hope you're getting the idea? I was also cross dressing in secret whilst all of this was going on, I was obviously covering this secret part of my life with a very male lifestyle, It was a subterfuge. This is what I thought might have used up all of my maleness, and allowed my femme side to out itself........Perhaps I shouldn't drink too much red wine in future? LOL

Anyway I can't rightly remember how far I got with my previous blog entries, but my documentation is gaining pace now, Tesco have sent me a new credit card at last, so I've transfered my balance to a different card and I'll close the Tesco account, thery were so arrogant and slow with me grrrr....

My vehicle registration came back today with my new name, and I had a message from the UK Passport Office that seemed very positive about my passport replacement.

I have a list of other not so important organisations and petty beaurocracies, that I need to tell of my name change, I'll start this tomorrow.

I've been out and about today at work and on private errands, with no negative responses, my confidence is growing all the time, and it feels great. I can't remember if I have already told of my visit to my GP's surgery or not? anyway bear with me if I'm retelling this. I had an appointment on the 6th Feb at 17:10, there were a few others waiting in the waiting room, all of which saw their doctor before I did. I have to use a touch screen to announce that I've arrived at the surgery, it asks male or female (more binary crap!) so I touched female, it asked for my date of birth, I entered it, it asked was I Eve, yes I answered and I mentally shouted YES AT LAST!! I'M RELLY EVE, the NHS has now recognised my aquired gender, and I don't have to suffer any embarrassment again.

But when I finally went into the doctors room, she looked amazed, she'd never seen me dressed as female before, it made me feel so happy. It's all the little things in life like this, that make it really possible for me to go about life in my new gender role, and each document or organisation that changes is a battle won on the road to final victory.

My face has feminised over the last 3 months or so especially my lips which are now fuller than they were, my boobs have also become much fuller too, I think I've been quite fortunate in this respect as most other trans girls that I know, haven't had as much "chest" development as I have had.

I'm cutting out alcohol for the next couple of weeks or so, the problem with alcohol is that it makes me eat the next day, and this is something I want to avoid, i want to have another sprint at further weight loss.

Well that's all for now, I'll try to write some more drivel next week...............

Cheers,

Eve x