Leaderboard

Also, you don't have to settle for being either a boy or a girl. You are no less transgender, no less human, and no less valid if at times you feel male or female, both or neither, all of these positions are valid and true expressions of transgender identity. And if you feel 100% girl, then that's who you are and that's fine too. Love Charl -o0o-

Crissiesan, you are far from being alone with these feelings, many of us have and will deny them but if you are destined to be female then as you get older these feelings will become stronger and as with many undeniable but of course this may simply be a desire to dress in the opposite gender which may very well feel like you should be female. The only true way to find out if you are transgender, crossdresser or (let's call it confused) a false/positive where false/positive means you think you should be female be don't fit into the need to transition nor dress in the opposite gender. So this is the task of a therapist who is well versed with gender dysphoria. Gender dysphoria can simply be that a mother was dominate in the household or that one played more with the other gender, I am not a therapist so these are only educated guesses. Without a therapist many go down a dark road that leads to nothing good and can very well cause a train wreck. Best to find out now and learn what the steps are to move forward.

Woohoo, that is wonderful, what a year you had

Christie, and Emma , I am so very grateful I did get to hear those wonderful word "oh sound like you may be transgender" As I too lived in total shame. Along with self loathing and hated and many other negative thoughts, before I heard those beautiful words. I just wish I could of heard them at age 24 , instead of 54 . None the less I will take it, better late than never. As I am alive for the first time in my life, feeling better than I ever have in my life. And I feel this good and I've not even started HRT yet!! Hugs, Dawn

Hi Karen, Strangly enough I wear thongs most of the time and I am still waiting for GRS, I find that getting them in slightly smaller size helps me to tuck my junk a lot better, and also I find them very comfortable. I suspect that they'll be a whole lot more comfortable post GRS............ Yes, getting called madam and ladies is quite commonplace now, and when I'm out I'm out and about I don't really think about passing, I'm too busy being me. Cheers Eve

Hahaha! Reminds me of the time when I was just out of college. My roommate and I decided to see what it was like to have a "wine tasting" party. We bought several bottles of different wines, invited friends over (also about 23-24 years old) and the party ended up with us figuring out who could spit the corks the farthest in the room! Ah, those were the fun days... Emma

Hi Monica, I sense some deep sadness in your entry. Don't knock yourself down, I'm sure many people would be interested in you. I know, that's fine for me to say that, because I also do the same sort of self deprecating things, you might see that in my latest blog entry ,specifically to do with mental capacity................... Whatever my shortcomings and I'm sure I have many, such as I'll never have a shapely body with such broad shoulders and narrow hips, I'm old, I'm not good looking and cute, my voice is terrible and will never be very femme, not well off financially et al, others still like & love me. Point is, if I can overcome all that crap, you can too. A persons inner self which I think used to be referred to as their persona will always shine out, and ok you refer to it as demisexuality, but if you really like some one, and they really like you, the sex bit will likely arrive at some point later. To my mind anything else is shallow, and to an extent false. Second point is that your persona does shine out girl, hold on to it it's great.......... Cheers, Eve x

Monica, thats very humourous, I was thinking of having them pinned to my dress as a person learning to be a woman....................... Eve x

Dear Brigsby, i agree with you. I've heard many complaints about the Bruce Jenner interview. "Bruce should have said." "Diane Sawyer wasn't as respectful as she could have been." Blah! 17 million people watched that show and indeed, they kept emphasizing very important points, such as gender dysphoria doesn't equate to sexual desire, and so forth. i think the interview was Fantastic on many levels and I'm very happy that Bruce did it (imagine the courage THAT took) and that Diane Sawyer was the interviewer. I loved every minute of it. Emma

Hi Eve, it all sounds great except... the roast chicken "UK style with lots of gravy." I'm sorry but you need to come visit us here at my house! No gravy except for Thanksgiving dinner here!!! I hope you know I'm just kidding... I'm very happy you had a nice vacation. It sounds like a blast! Emma

Dawn, What a wonderful year! Like Emma I wish I had a therapist say that to me at some point - but once I said it to myself I experienced the same general feeling, really almost immediate elation. I haven't stopped anti-depressants yet, but probably soon. I look forward to hearing about your ongoing progress xoxo Christie

Dear Dawn, I love your post; it really speaks to me. I wonder what my life might have been like if a therapist had said those words to me, too. I was so ashamed of my feelings for so many decades... I was even afraid to admit my feelings to a therapist! Which seems stupid now, but my shame was in control. No more, no more. Anyway, you deserve such accolades for what you have accomplished. Good for you. I hope we hear from you more often! hugs, Emma