Hiya Chrissy. Firstly Sweetheart, My Sincerest Deepest Condolences; and My Sincere Deepest Sympathies; on the Loss of Your Uncle. My Thought's Are with You. Secondly, II did Read Your Whole Post, As Always. Thirdly, I wish that I lived near You, because You obviously could have used a shoulder to cry on. Chrissy, I have always been an emotional Girl, ever since I first realised, at the age of 3, that I Am Female; Trapped; in A Male Body. Chrissy, there is no shame, whatsoever, in letting Your emotion's out. It Is far better than bottling thing's up, and making Yourself ILL. Chrissy, You can be so Proud of being the Lovely; Pretty; Beautiful; Young Lady; that You are. Thing's WILL work out for You, so Please Do Not give up Hope. I know what You mean, about Hating Your Employment. You WILL find something better - Soon ! Chrissy, Good Luck; Good Health; Take Care; And My Love, And My Very Best Wishes, Stephanie. xxxx