Hi Bree, thank you for your well wishes but I'm sorry you, Nikki, and your family are having such problems. I can well imagine how you feel about having to put Logan down. It's so hard isn't it, after bonding like we do to these little creatures that ignore us so often, unless they're hungry. At times like these (including what I'm going through as I contemplate my divorced future) we need to be easy on ourselves, caring for ourselves. Consider creating a "Self-Care Checklist" as recommended by my friend Dara Hoffman-Fox that you can refer to as needed for ideas. Here's some of mine: Emma's Self-Care Checklist Physical Take a walkStretchHiking Bike rideRide the motorcycleArts Listen to musicPlay guitarPainting/drawingPhotographyCulinary Cook dinnerDrink a glass of wineCup of coffeeCup of teaEntertainment Watch a favorite TV showWatch a favorite movieWatch a new movieRead a novelTransgender Curl up in bed in nightgownDress in my leggings and a pretty topRead favorite blogs Shave body hairSpiritual MeditateTake a napLight a candleTasks Straighten up the RV Do laundryClean the RV None of the above are a panacea, but it helps to at least know the list is there when I need it, and it helps me. Maybe something like this will help you too. Emma