Dear Charli, I cannot imagine the weight of your abuse and feelings, and thank you for providing a glimpse into your world. I certainly agree that neither sexuality or abuse equals our being transgender although I do understand that confusion. I am not aware that we are seen as a sexual attraction as a group although I dream of being attractive to a special woman who I will also be attracted to. We will see. I worry about rejection but that's for another post. As for the Cogiati and other tests, to me they are like a carnival ride. Fun, exciting perhaps, but soon over and not meaning much. For us transwomen we hope they will help confirm what we know in our hearts. Love, Emma