Dear Caroline,
I'm sure you'll be over yor divorce problem and your life will rise.
Your HRT seems right to me. Oh, how I liked to have Zoladex or some similar GnRH depot injection. But in Hungary it's almost impossible. I could get it supported by social security if I would have prostata cancer. Well, I haven't got such problem and hopefully I newer will have. The full price such injections costs 10% of my salary which is rather high by Hungarian standards. One 3-months injection costs as much as the testicle removal surgery. So I had to choose the latter...
In case of relationships I got to the same point than you. I tried to meet men, but they were abusive or just too harsh. So I found out that the company of women -GGs or other MtFs- fits me better. :$ So I became lesbian as well, totally in contrast to my original feelings and imaginations.
I wish you luck with the surgery team!
Hugs,
Sophie