SophieTaylor

Dear Caroline,

What does "to be normal" mean? Normality is just the average madness of the population. You did right when you decided not to be "normal" intead of being yourself.

I hope your body will transform to fit your inner self-portrait as soon as possible.

Hugs,

Sophie

Dear Caroline,

I'm sure you'll be over yor divorce problem and your life will rise.

Your HRT seems right to me. Oh, how I liked to have Zoladex or some similar GnRH depot injection. But in Hungary it's almost impossible. I could get it supported by social security if I would have prostata cancer. Well, I haven't got such problem and hopefully I newer will have. The full price such injections costs 10% of my salary which is rather high by Hungarian standards. One 3-months injection costs as much as the testicle removal surgery. So I had to choose the latter...

In case of relationships I got to the same point than you. I tried to meet men, but they were abusive or just too harsh. So I found out that the company of women -GGs or other MtFs- fits me better. :$ So I became lesbian as well, totally in contrast to my original feelings and imaginations.

I wish you luck with the surgery team!

Hugs,

Sophie

Thank you both, you're so kind! :)

Shalom,

Let me explain the issue from the other side. I am MtF so I try to be as feminine as I can be. I really need support and friends during this process so I try to make new friendships.

I have a girlfriend. We’ve been together for 8 years, long before I realized my transsexual motives. She was always “protective” she even “protected” me from my childhood friends. We solved this problem during the years.

Now I’m transitioning and seeking for new friends who can understand me, support me. She asks why I am not contented by her support only. Whenever a new friendship starts to bloom she became jealous and tries to end that friendship.

I never wanted to live anyone instead her. I never wanted to go to bed anyone instead her. I never cheated her during these eight years although I am really sexual and lustful person. Since estrogen, progesterone and antiandrogen take their effect in me, I’m really longing for the love of a man, but I never would cheat her not even with the most handsome, cute and caring man. This is a very weird feeling to me, as I didn’t find males attractive before; including myself, I found myself the less attractive, precisely.

So it’s simple. I just want support form another side, you have to be supported from more than one side to remain stable. Moreover I really need someone who not thinks that my transsexualism must remain within the walls of our house.

But every time and after I have to face that she can’t bear any new person in my life, regardless of gender, age, geographical distance or anything. She treats these would-be friends as competitors for my heart. I showed my devotion for her for years in vain…

This is not protection. It’s possession. I love her, so I remain by her side at all costs. But I really hate this behavior; it sometimes makes me think that our 8 years together was wasted time.

So don’t “protect” your beloved man with all your might. This protection could be the doom of your relationship.

Hugs,

Sophie

Dear Cyrsti,

You're not alone. Realizing my true feelings took me 29 years to and another three to gather the courage to start my transformation. But I'm still forced into secrecy. I don't know how many years will have to pass until I can step out of the shadows.

I'm standing proudly on my cliff but the winds are blowing more and more crazy.

Hugs,

Sophie

I want to tell just one thing. You're truly beautiful.

Hugs,

Sophie

Shalom, chavera yehuda! ;)

My Hebrew’s rather weak (and I even have problems to transcribe alephbet to Latin letters in English pronunciation), so I switch to English.

I’ll send you a private message as soon as I have enough time to compose a longer text.

Until then,

Later ot!

Sophie

Love to know more and hear from you.

You can learn a bit about me from my two blogs, one here, the other at wordpress. If you want to know even more, just ask.

Sophie

Happy Birthday tomorrow, Caroline!

You have children who love you. You’ve find a new love recently. I think these are such achievements which would make any of us happy and proud. Don’t think it’s terrible, even the “magical 50” won’t change anything next year.

Just look back, see the good things of your life and enjoy the remembrance. See the bad things as well and try to learn from them then forget them.

Enjoy your life; enjoy the journey of your transition.

Hugs,

Sophie

Dear Cyrsti,

I don’t think that we become worse females than we was as males previously. Inner conflicts are natural in every group. Conflicts between women are often more wicked and treasonous than between men.

We can’t dismiss our male mentality completely, of course but there’s one important thing to remember: every person has both masculine and feminine traits both physically and psychically. Even the most feminine genetic woman has thoughts of a male and act like a male in some situations and vice versa.

We can improve our mentality, or soul. I discover new aspects of my life week by week that wasn’t recognized when I was totally male. I really enjoy every such happening, they widen my breadth of view, improve my feminine part inside me slowly.

There’s much hope for all of us!

Hugs,

Sophie

Hi Caroline,

The doc just wanted to be sure about your intents and determination, I assume. That was some kind of filter to find who was there just by some passing whim.

Long story short, congratulations for your promising meeting and future HRT.

Hugs,

Sophie

Dear Caroline,

Good luck on your 2nd appointment! I wish you a happy lifelong love with your newly found girlfriend!

Hugs,

Sophie