BobbieJane

I am a late bloomer that has been struggling with my gender for a very long time. I traveled the same path as many and tried to fix myself and fit in the square peg society dictated, to be male per my original birth certificate. To do this I was married 2 times. The last marriage lasted 30 years until my wife passed away. That was when I decided enough is enough and sought out help to allow myself to finally be totally happy with myself. It is true I loved my wife and tried to stay true to our vows in the church and never gave a clue I wanted to be female while married. Maybe that was a mistake, which I can not change.

I began my transition about 3 years ago after my wife passed away. Sought out professional gender therapy, joined web groups, worked with a gender therapist and eventually began my journey when told I could start HRT. That was a very happy moment and also a moment of inner turmoil. The turmoil was about, once I start on this path there would be no turning back, but I am so happy I decided to follow my heart. I had a plan and followed it to the letter. I knew retirement was just over a year away and made sure I had the best development physically possible before I wanted to do my first surgery just after the retirement. I chose a date just 6 weeks after retirement and underwent both ffs and breast augmentation. That was the happiest day and the most painful day of my life. I was finally outwardly the female I felt inside. Proceeding per the Harry Benjium standard I lived full time for a year before scheduling my letters needed to have grs. Just 14 months after retirement I became a legal female which was my most cherished moment I can remember. The thoughts that go through your mind when handed the letter stating your now female are unsermounted by anything I have done in my 60+ years on this earth. I wanted to cry, screem, laugh, celebrate and drop down to my knees and pray a thank you. All in that order.

Today only 4 mouths post op I am happy enjoying my new life. Yes I am a part of the womens sororiety but always a part of the transgender family. I talk on panels at colleges about my journey, make friends going through their journey and try to help them, enjoy those that just want to express their feminine side on occation (the crossdresser}, am involved in transgender events and the community plus attend transgender conferences. If we that have traveled the road to womanhood can't help those behind us or at least are in symphathy with them then what type of person are we. Please if your on your journey or just want a friend that understands please ask to be my friend.