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After many years of thinking I was gay and a few more years of earnest field research, I finally realized that what I really wanted, was to just drop this ridiculous "dude act". It's a long twisted story but basically I'm a guy who had to learn to be a guy. I was the femmy little boy who was playing jump rope and jacks with the other girls until life gradually started to pound me into a man the way a blacksmith pounds a piece of iron into a tool. Many years of testosterone and enforced machismo has failed to kill my feminine spirit however and now that I've remembered who I really am, I won't be wasting any more time pretending to be something I can't feel. So many years wasted looking for the perfect girlfriend until I finally realized I wanted to BE the perfect girlfriend.