deborah111

Well, i am 53 and wish i were 23, because i would do it right and NOT waste so many years in denial. After several failed marriages and too many "meaningful" relationships with women that weren't, i have come to a realization that i have been miserable my entire life because i was living a lie! For the past year and a half, half forgotten memories have been flooding back to my consciousness. Not of sexual experiences, but of experiences i didn't experience! i can remember from the earliest age thinking about/wishing i could be a girl. The desire to wear pretty things, makeup and "fussing" about my hair...mmmmmm....But, i did what was expected of me, what i told myself was "right" and became the "macho" "man" i was supposed to be. Well after many unhappy endings and far too many years wasted, i am at last becoming the GIRL i should have always been.

Now the kind of MAN i am looking for is Special! He is Tall, Mature, Masculine and Manly! He has no desire to suck penis, or be penetrated, but he EXPECTS his cock to be sucked and when he wishes, to penetrate a loving and thankful subordinate gurl....like me! He is not a ruffian nor a brute, but he is "gently assertive" and firm handed when called for. He is intelligent, virile, fit, attractive and ALL MAN. The kind of Man that, if this was a "survival of the fittest" society, would be expected to not only survive but prosper! If it were a tribal society, to be a chief or powerful warrior....you know the Man/Men i speak of. We have seen them all of our lives and looked up to them. They "exude" Manliness.....AND they know it! PLEASE contact me....i know you are out there!!

So, for the past nearly two years, i have been dreaming of finally being able to DRESS and ACT and BE the woman i held back for so long. I am taking it slowly, mostly because of financial reasons.....ok BECAUSE of financial reasons, and am learning all i can about makeup etc. i do NOT want to look RIDICULOUS, but maybe i will never be passable (hope not!), so the Man/Men i seek will overlook that fault, and permit me to be me in spite of that. However, i SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO want to look GOOD! So many pretty things to wear!! And the HEELS, omg!

thank you;

debbi