Lenore

I'm almost 21 and I've struggled with the desire to be a female my entire life. Everything about being a girl just seems so much more comfortable to me. I cross dress in private and I'm not confident enough to move beyond that. I'm pretty terrified that I will be perceived as a freak. Everyone says not to care what others think but I find it to be difficult.

Taking Hormones has been on my mind a lot lately. I'd love to start them but I fear I'll lose the people close to me. Being a guy is just easier and less stressful than turning everything upside down so I usually put the thought of being a girl out of my mind.

I'm a manager at a pharmacy, I'm applying to college in the fall, and I have a girlfriend. I'm really good at cooking since my original plan was to go to culinary school. Worked two years as a line cook and as a chef. I do a lot of drugs and drink in excess but I figure I'm young and should live it up. I'm not like a crack dealer or anything though. Drugs are just like an odd hobby of mine which is why my aspiration is to graduate pharm school and become a doctor.

Feel free to talk to me. I don't have much insight on most of these topics other than what I've read but I'm friendly and willing to listen