Ok ladies and gentlemen, Another day in this fight to survive I feel as though it is getting harder and more of a pessure to make it to the next day, these things we do have us under the vise they seem to me to be an at times unbairable , the anxiety pressing us into the ground and crushing the very air we breath out of our bodies Is this just me do I stand alone in this I think not I feel that it must be part of this struggle it must be because why would I feel this way if it wasn't part of the way My brain suffers through life struggles with the fact that this body is wrong it is not the way it should be It has to coep with this in such a way that I feel it just has no other release then to way heavy on my heart to crush my chest with the wieght of what seems to be an elephant, at some times the weight of the world......Is their some sort of release can the transition help with these facts of life that we suffer through or are these just things we will suffer from for the rest of our lives ? Can HRT help with this.....God I hope so because this Is just becoming to much to take .....I am becoming tierd of the fight ....I cant give up the fight I deserve to be myself Dont I? I think so so I have to make it to the otherside I know that life wont get any easier it will simply change to a diffrent form as I will after transition..But will the transition take this wieght from my heart ? GOD Give me the stength to make it to tomorrow....

Tomorrow is on the way

Tomorrow is here today

Tomorrow is yet another day away

Tomorrow is come agian

Tomorrow is so far away

Tomorrow is crushing me

Tomorrow is holding me

Tomorrow is taunting me

Tomorrow is teasing me

Tomorrow is mocking me

Why do you run to Tomorrow

I must catch Tomorrow for it is just a day away....

S.P