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When You're Trans, Fantasy Trumps Reality

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A couple or three months ago, I discovered a new channel in my cable channel line-up, and in doing so, spotted "Starsky and Hutch" in the primetime programming.  I hadn't seen it since it went off the air, though I did see the 2004 movie.  I've been watching the 1975-79 show since then, enjoying the action, and seeing things I never saw before.

What?  :huh:

I watched "S&H" religiously.  I even remembered that the show, at least for a while, came on on Wednesdays.  So why wasn't I able to sit back and watch the show and think to myself on occasion, "oh yeahhhh... I remember this episode!"  It was like I was seeing each episode for the first time night after night.   After about two weeks, I started googling stuff about the show - something you couldn't do back in 1975. 

How can someone who was such a fan, remember only the characters?  Oh, and the opening theme song.  I also liked that big cannon of a .357 Magnum that Hutch used.  And I remember that brown and white cardigan that Starsky wore on occasion.  I even had a similar cardigan.  I loved that cardigan.   However, show after show, I failed to recognize any of the episodes.  Every so often, it seemed like a memory was about to be triggered.  And eventually, there was a scene in one episode that I thought I remembered.  Or maybe I just convinced myself that I remembered because it got to the point that I felt like I had to remember.  I should remember.  I didn't even remember the touchy-feely-makes-you-wonder-if-they're-gay-lovers-but-they're-always-after-the-girls kinda characters.

After a couple more weeks of watching "S&H" reruns, and still not recognizing any of the episodes, I started wondering why.  Yes, I liked Hutch's gun - I had a toy gun similar to his when I was a kid.  And I liked Starsky's cardigan.  Did I mention that I really like that cardigan?  :lol:  And that sweater I had made me sorta feel like Starsky.  Then it hit me - I couldn't remember the show itself because of Starsky - I wished I was Detective David Starsky.  With that .357 Magnum (instead of Hutch).  That's why I can't really remember any of the episodes.  When I watched the show each week, I apparently "stepped into the TV," pretending to be Starksy.  I was the cop that got into shoot-outs, wild chases in that slick lookin' Torino, always lost out on the pretty girls to my partner.  Hutch was annoying like that.

Now that I'm older, and have found different ways to be me...I can sit back and watch "S&H" for the first time.  But I guess somewhere deep down, I still sorta wish I was Starsky...


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In one way I am not surprised that they still have this show running as it was a great show (yet I don't remember any episodes), For some odd reason they remind me of Hall and Oats, go figure. I bet many back then wish they were one of them.

Any ways good to hear you have found some perspective watching them. 

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I wasn't much of a Starsky and Hutch fan, maybe because my fantasies were more about being one of the females. I used to love watching Star Trek, both when it was new and in re-runs and I recall the details of many episodes. But man, did I want to be Yeoman Rand! :P

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My fantasies were more about Charlie's Angels - my dream was being Jaclyn Smith.  I think she was the most elegantly glamorous :wub:

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Christie,

I agree with you 100% about Jacklyn Smith. I suppose the one for me that trumps all others? My namesake, Mrs. Emma Peel (Diana Rigg) of The Avengers! Oh, but let's not forget Julie Andrews, Stephanie Powers, Mary Tyler Moore, Sally Field, Julie Newmar, Barbara Feldon, Natalie Wood, Marlo Thomas, Patty Duke, .... and, Shirley Temple!!!

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Oh my, does it date me too much to admit that when I was very young, I really wanted to be Electra Woman? :D

(Yeah, you younger ones will have to Google that... :lol: )

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Oh my, I'll admit I didn't remember about Electra Woman, but when I googled it I did recall the show.  Not a bad choice :)

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Yep... I googled "Electra Woman," too.  I also looked at the 1976 calendar to see why I couldn't really say I remembered the show.   Seems it's regular timeslot was on Saturday mornings.  Perhaps about the time the show came on, my brother and I might have been doing chores, or there were cartoons on that we preferred to watch.

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