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Knowing myself



Hi there


Blessed be to all.


As I start off thinking about myself, I know if I could change anything about myself, it would be:

  • My gender by protecting myself from having to experience gender specific issues the world have,
  • Keep my height and weight
  • Be fit and limber, a perfectionist when it comes to kungfu, tai chi, tae kwan do, and numerous other martial arts formforms
  • Speak language I stil understand and more, German, Dutch, Italian, French, Spanish, Mandarin, Japanese, Korean, Taiwanese, Hindi, Urdu.  Okay just be a linguist that catches languages in mere minutes, but be as fluent in Afrikaans and English ooh and make that Xhosa, Zulu, Pedi, Tswana.  Not that I'm not fluent in Afrikaans (kinda suck at it, but still have a better understanding then most people), and more so in English. (Okay my first language was Afrikaans, but as the business language changed in South Africa, so I began speaking, reading, and writing much less and in some cases I just stopped.)

Okay, my list is much longer but I don't want to keep typing in 5 or 6 hours just to be busy with what I would change, but in te end if I changed anything in my past I wouldn't be the same Michele Heynes that I am today.


I am

  • Tall (5'8¼) 1.74m
  • Slender enough (140Lbs) 63kgs, yes fattish if you talk about a model
  • Speak, read and write in Afrikaans and English more then proficiently.  Speak mixed up in German and Dutch, and understand on a basic level, speaker screwed up in Mandarin and Xhosa, more so Mandarin then Xhosa, mixing Xhosa and English and I'm proficient on a basic understanding levelevel
  • Hazelnut colored eyes
  • Know I'm originally intersexed, but will rather just be me
  • Know my weapons and cars
  • Not afraid to die, death becomes us all, but not before I used my punani.

The point I'm trying to make is this easy...


We all are unique individuals, our own strengths and weaknesses, desires and fears.  By accepting the struggles we had to endure even if it almost took a lifetime for some to maintain or gain the confidence to soldier in and be true to ourselves.  Like Jazz who was fortunate enough to present as female from a young age.  Kaitlyn on the other side of the spectrum that waited to be true to herself very late in life.  Or life me that would verbalize what I was feeling and have always been true to myself but knew for he kind of work I wanted to do, I knew the struggles would inadvertently only allowing me to start transition in my early 30s and keeping a fight I never thought I would have to endure.  Oh well, the fight was as I expected unpredictable and unnerving.  My humanity was questioned as selfpreservation kicked in and an analytical bitch with fighting and research capabilities.


So even if you wished you could've change the past, leave it as is, because we never will be the same for the actions we changed in our past.


Lots of love, hugs and kisses.


Be who you need to be and forget about the past you wishing to change, as it would inevitably leave a person in your wake that no one can think off or would want to be at any hotel or between people of interest




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H Veronica


This freebird is sometimes confusedbird.


But my sentiment exactly, I wouldn't seem changed to me, but in reality with any change there is a ripple effect of change.


Wait, let me stop this oldish wisdom and say cheers for now.  As I'm thinking of a topic again, but everything I write about represents me.




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Hiya Michele. You are Quite an inspiration to a lot of Us. The thing is, that You are Michele, the Lovely Young Lady, Who We have seen Maturing in front of Us. I Applaud You Michele, and I wish You nothing but All Good Wishes. Michele, I respect You, for the job that You do as well. Michele, You are a Brilliant Young Lady. Take Care, And My Very Best Wishes, Love Stephanie. xxxx 

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