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  1. amie added a post in a topic: Girls VS. Boys   

    if you only take estrogen your body may actually increase testosterone levels making you even more masculine. The doctor will prescribe a balance of Androgen Blockers and Estrogen with possibly progesterone. The testosterone stays in your body but the receptors (areas of your body that are craving testosterone) will not be able to get the testosterone.) This is difficult for the doctor because testosterone tests show how much testosterone is in your body but not how much your body is actively using. They usually prescribe a minimum dosage first and see how your body reacts to the changes. Transitioning is still experimental because every person is a little different. What the doctor pays very close attention to is the affect of the hormone therapy on your body. If your internal organs start to fail then the doctor may reduce or remove hormone therapy all together. Without doctors help you increase your risk of permanent injury or death. It is both the blocking of testosterone and introduction of estrogen that work together for feminization. Estrogen is extremely dangerous and blood clotting is a very serious side effect and I learned the hard way. Risks vs. Benefit.
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  2. amie added a post in a topic: Denied: White House says ‘no’ to ENDA executive order   

    Do not lose hope. It is my understanding that we continue to have protection under the law under sex discrimination. For example I am now legally female. If I am criticized for how I look or dress my understanding is that after first requesting the harassement to stop I may file a complaint as sexual harassment for sex discrimination, picking on what I look like. Has anyone else heard this. I read it from literature from Lambda Legal. So guys where pink boys and ribbons all you want. They can fire you for being transgender but not for looking transgender please help me with this one, I want to make sure I understand this difference. Where there are dress codes this would affect clothing and makeup, but if you follow the dress code of the female very closely, I would think you could present as long as is one or the other. But you can't say that you are transgender or claim to identify with the opposite sex gender or claim gender identity issues, just that you wish to dress a certain way is personal preference. Simply that you chose that dress code. Ideas please. There is a way around this. As a transgender person I would chose the job without a dresscode and then dress what represents me. These are ideas I am grasping from all of this, anyone want to add to this or clarify the alternatives for us. That I am legally female may be a key factor in this case but I am not sure.
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  3. amie added a post in a topic: Pastor Says Punch Your Gay [and Transgender] Children   

    oh and one more thing. People are definately missing some very clear reasons for some of the effeminate children in the world. Hormones and how the body processes these hormones. Many boys are born without the ability to process testosterone, they will have high voices and maybe even have feminine mannerisms, this is natural. Somebody please educate this man, someday he will be so embarassed for all of his lack of understanding. How does he get away with this.

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  4. amie added a post in a topic: Pastor Says Punch Your Gay [and Transgender] Children   

    This person is so uneducated. I would love an opportunity to debate him. He represents the core of our problems with hatred and bigotry. He clearly represents an example of stereotypes in america. And I don't care who he is or who he works for, I would not be scared to stand up to him. I will channel this energy into writing. This is perfect evidence as to why we ask for laws and protection This person should have to sit in a hospital for labor and delivery for a month. Let him see some real intersex defects for himself, let him meet the parents. Some people will never change their attitude so they become a threat by turning other people against us. All in the name of religion. Understanding transgender starts with understanding very obvious intersex conditions. The studies are there, the science is there. I think this guy is gay. So maybe suzzy is both a boy and a girl so what does he think then? should suzzy who is also tommy where a dress? He needs to have his balls crushed "figuratively". I suppose a high dose of Spironolactone might do the trick for him. He thinks he was healed but inside he is suffering. Since he can't be himself, he is seeing to it that he can make every other child suffer as he did inside. This is my opinion but very plausible, I believe.

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  5. amie added a comment on a blog entry: Transistioning Without Hormones?   

    I reached a point of total acceptance of myself before I started hormones, I also felt that I had found the woman buried within me and I just needed to know it was ok. What convinced me to go on with hormone therapy was the knowledge that as I got older that I would age as a man and it would get more difficult as time went on as I was starting to lose my hair. However after my surgery I realized how much the medical community does not know what will happen next. There are many questions that remain. Many risks with each medical intervention. Because I finally accept myself I am more afraid of any further surgery because now I actually want to live! The combination of Mental Therapy along with Hormone therapy was a good balance for me. But it also important to be open to the consequences and permanent nature of the results. Acceptance means so much and First Impressions are very significant. It is far more possible to be accepted where people do not know ones past gender than when forced to confront family and friends of the past. What is really interesting is that through my own changes I have gone back to my home town and stood right next to people I have known for years and they did not recognize me. There is much peace about being able to start over. I believe that hormone therapy makes life easier in public not just about subtle physical changes but about human scent as well, hormone therapy changed the subconscious odor that is present in human beings different between men and women. When I was off estrogen for 3 months I noticed a difference in how my spouse reacted toward me. When I went back on hormones she became more separate from me and less interested, there was very little physical changes it was more about the smell. Anyway just a little food for thought. Hormones or no hormones should not stop anyone from doing there best to be themselves.

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  6. amie added a blog entry in From Full-Time to Overtime   

    Not a dream anymore but reality, and a very stressful one indeed.
    I am very happy to have completed transition and become accepted in my new identity. However with very little support from friends and family of the past. The stress of keeping up each day is starting to take its toll on me.

    I was hired full-time in a job in which everyone that surrounds me on a daily basis does not know of my past, Nor do they give me any inclination that they even think that I have ever been anything other than who I am now.

    Because I could not afford any type of hair removal I successfully chose plucking in order to get me by. I pleasantly report that the plucking succeeded in reducing my hair growth dramatically and the hairs come back thinner and lighter. However the only way to completely eliminate beard shadow would be electrolysis or laser. The shadow occurs from the pigment that is located at the base of the follicle.
    Even cis-gender women can have this problem, so I do not feel completely out of place.. I do spend at least 1/2 hour each day doing maintenance on my face to keep looking feminine and fresh, but there really isn't that much to pluck unless I skip a day. But since I first plucked, I have not shaved and this growth has slowed significantly.

    Since Hormones have also helped me, I do remember reading that over time Estrogen may cause the facial skin to thin out a bit, revealing more of the shadowed pigment underneath the skin. So how does this affect me???

    I feel more self conscious about having a shadow because I do not and cannot have anyone talking about or guessing about my identity. However I have seen cis-gendered women with more shadow than me so half of these feelings may be in my head.

    Words cannot express what it is like to have to dress professionally 24/7. I went from never being able to dress up to having to follow a strict professional dress code which requires things like dresses, skirts, nylons and fine leather shoes. I have gotten used to this now, but I sincerely miss the days when I could just get up and be casual once in while.

    Well I am so tired I can't stay awake. I sleep in hotel rooms every night and end up keeping my makeup on through the night just in case someone were to pull the fire alarm forcing me to leave the comfort of my room.

    More to follow..........

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  7. amie added a post in a topic: Female Vocabulary   

    Go to a busy salon for a perm or hair color, you'll be in there long enough to hear everything.\

    There are nice women and rough women. If you want the most acceptable recognized female than you want to be exceptionally nice and by all means become a great listener. Ask questions that another person is dying to answer and talk about. Give Compliments gently and really care about the other person. For many years there were basically women nurses. This is because socially women were raised to be good caregivers and nurturers. You must think with care and concern and sincerity if you want to tap into this circle. You do not have to be caddy or cause gossip to be accepted. Being nice will get you further. And put a permanent end to responding with a loud voice or swearing. I have heard plenty of women use the F word but I think they get it from their relationships with men. I am very happy among women who are classic in their everyday language. and yes I have heard Hun or Honey, Dear, and girl, way to go girl, that's so nice, you are beautiful, show emotion, allow emotion, don't be afraid to cry. What more can I say. It is quite easy if you start hanging around women instead of men and if you are presenting as female then over time you will really hear the difference as the women open up even more to real women. Women are not necessarily as sweet as you may think once they know a man is not in the room. It all depends.

    I wish the best for you and your future.

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  8. amie added a post in a topic: voice issues   

    I spent one day recording myself reading from a magazine, then I played it back. A digital high quality digital recorder is great so that you can play back right away. There is so much more you can do by practicing this way yourself. I guarantee you will be able to find something you like by doing this. You keep trying different ranges until you find which is best for you I am trying to concentrate on my over-all tone quality since many people just fall into a habit at certain ranges. What gives most male voices away is bass, and more power behind the voice and I have learned to recognize when my lower voice slips back in. What also helps me greatly is to notice how I am when I talk to my 2 year old daughter. Most people naturally use the higher range of their voice when around little children. Falsetto is definately out, that sounds unnatural I think for anyone unless it is for comedy purposes.

    Everyone says hormones don't affect the voice, but this morning I woke up and sounded different as I have never heard myself before. I know that the hormones won't shrink my vocal chords but I am having a natural tendency to talk higher now and it is different then before I was on the therapy. My son who is almost 15 still jumps between his boy voice and his new adult bassy voice, he doesn't seem to be doing this purposely he's just getting used to more options.
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  9. amie added a comment on a blog entry: Always Changing My Mind   

    Welcome Back Kate,

    I would just like to say that I have really missed you and am happy to hear from you again. Your blog is certainly genuine, I identify so closely with what you are saying I feel like I could be your twin. I have traditionally emerged as a leader in everything I have done in my life but I still ask a lot of questions and want people on my side. Lately I seem to have lost my ability to lead certain people because they have lost confidence in me because of my condition.

    It always hurts me when people judge me incorrectly, make assumptions and throw their viewpoint with no desire to actually have a conversation. My greatest challenge in life has been the relationship with my father. My mom died 5 years ago and she knew all about me. My dad is just learning about my condition and he is quite disappointed that I can't just think myself into being a man. It also bothers me when so many people can't even begin to understand what it going on in myself when it makes total sense to me. I am girl in a man's body it is as simple as that.

    I would like to encourage you Kate that since I have been on hormones, which is one month now, I really feel better all the way around. My anxieties have decreased dramatically and I have been less concerned about sexual feeling or my orientation. I am simply happy being myself and redifining my identity. My ability to think creatively has improved and as a musician myself, I actually perform better than ever other than getting tired quicker. Everything about my transition feels right on and my condition is improving under doctors care as a MtF woman. The doctor refered to me as a transwoman. It was a good feeling inside to see that my primary medical doctor treats me with respect and is working so hard at giving that support. I too, am concerned about my relationship with God but I believe that God has answered my recent prayer by helping me find the appropriate therapy to help me regain confidence in myself and inner healing. I don't understand why my family and friends can't be happy for me but I am learning to pick and choose who I want to hang out with and who are my real friends.

    Drop me a private message anytime!!

    Your Friend, Amie
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  10. amie added a blog entry in When somebody brings you down   

    coping strategy 001
    On my last visit to the doctor I had my first experience of someone laughing at me in public as a transwoman. I am reasonably sure the laughing was about me but I chose not to look as I passed by the two young men. I felt like I was a little kid again, first day of school where someone made fun of what I was wearing. Following the laughter was some real faint whispering, when the men began to chat more about what they just saw. (what is ironic is that the two men whispering sounded like what you would expect from some little girls, not boys) I mentioned the experience to my doctor and she asked me how I handled it. I thought for a moment and came up with what I thought to be a pretty good plan of attack to this issue in my life. She liked my response and said that it would be good for me to write it down. I hope this thought process can also help someone else.

    For that one moment in time that someone may laugh or discriminate against you is it worth suffering a lifetime in the wrong body by not transitioning, just to avoid those little moments? After all, those little moments will pass again and again. Then you will be left with all of the rest of the time that you must live with yourself. So why not ignore the little moments and decide to be happy in the big moments of life; the moments that go on and on and have you in it. The moments when you really live life in your work, in relationships and personal time.

    Right now it seems like the little moments are big moments, but they are not. The real bad comments or looks are all passing moments usually from strangers. The little moments can turn into big bad moments if I let these things bother me and ponder them for hours or days. For every moment like that where I move on quickly, I become a stronger person. I learn that what matters most in my life is how I feel about myself (am I at peace with myself?)and my ability to live life to the fullest despite the challenges.

    I look forward to the day that I can look back and say I did it! I also look forward to each new day as I wish to try to enjoy the journey to womanhood to the best of my ability. As of now I am more like a little girl learning a new way of life and slightly different method of relating to people than I am used to and I should enjoy all of these moments as realistically as possible as I didn't exactly get to live them out earlier in my life.

    So in Summary... I am the one who lives with myself all of the time, my relationship with everyone else and the majority of my experiences with these people are only small moments in time. Which part in time do I want to enjoy the little moments that pass, or the big moments that can even give birth to smaller little moments that really matter?

    I choose life, my life, my way, my happiness.

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  11. amie added a post in a topic: Fashion Sense   

    If you look good in that color then go for it. I agree that finding clothes with shades of pink and colors that complement the pink will give you more variety. The right color means a lot. If pink isn't your color than it would be good to avoid it. I have been reading more about this and it is interesting. All colors are not for everyone when it comes to fashion.

    I have found colors that look good on me and I am going to stick with those because I actually feel better when wearing them.

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  12. amie added a comment on a blog entry: Spinning my wheels   


    I am also anxious about hormones but I have realized that there is a lot we can do without them. If you can gain self-confidence to present yourself as you are then you will never be dependent on hormones in case for some reason you can't continue the therapy. Not only that, you can start going out as a woman right away. You might start out in an area where people don't know you. Believe in yourself and that there is more to you than your appearance. Just do your best to get out there more and when the hormones kick in your transition can be that much smoother. I wasn't sure I could do it either, but every week I have been gaining more self-confidence and I have finally accepted the fact that many people are not comfortable with how they look but they go out in public out of necessity and eventually they just get used to it. For me plucking out my beard hair gave me the kick start I needed.

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  13. amie added a post in a topic: Topless Transgender Women Create Confusion, Questions in Rehoboth Beach, Delaware   

    I have always wanted to wear a womens swimsuit to cover everything up. I always wondered if I would get thrown out of the pool for not being without a shirt as a male. Does anyone know about rules condisdering me wearing a women's style swimsuit. 1 piece or bikini? Interesting.

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  14. amie added a post in a topic: Cruel And Unusual (VIDEO)   

    Thank you shannon,

    I watched all of the videos, I hope these links stay active for a long time. Very touching stories. This video really portrays the reality of this condition. I don't know how people can turn away from this information. Anyone who has even half of a heart should feel for these people.

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  15. amie added a post in a topic: Nylon stockings or pantyhose   

    I find panty hose the most basic and very important part of my everyday wardrobe. I only wear nylons that are comfortable and sometimes you have to pay a little more but it is worth it. To me I want my legs to look as good as I feel so I shave my legs everyday and I use lotion on my legs as well. I love tights as well in the winter and the seemlessness of panyhose really helps me focus on my work and not on the discomfort I use to feel when I wore mens underwear with all the seams.

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