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A sigh, a Deep breath


Every now and then, people have to stop and breathe and realize that things they were planning and hoping for...need to wait.

It's a depressing and saddening experience, but it's one that we all must have at least once every few miles. Sort of like getting the oil changed in your car, you have to take the time to stop and refresh your fuels and reset your priorities.

For me, its the surgery.

I know I NEED it to help ease my mind, and make me more comfortable in my own flesh, but I know it's not happening any time soon.

As much as I wanted to spend my summer shirtless and enjoying the sun and the cool breeze on my shoulders, I know it's not going to happen.

I dont have the funds for it, and I probably wont this year at all.

The gofundme account I have up, though I'm blessed that a few have donated so far, I have a feeling wont get me too far.

I'm not looking forward to the dreadful heat of wearing a compression shirt, binder AND sports bra under my t-shirt or work shirt this summer....but I'll have to deal with it. It wont go away, and I refuse to wear a bra.

Hell even with a bra, I was dying of heat. I cannot imagine the torment that this summer will bring me, as we've been promised an insanely hot summer this year.

Swimming is no longer in my pool of options, as I refuse to wear a girl's swimsuit, and there are no swimmers binders for my bust size that will stay on properly.

I try not to get upset about it, but I know the truth and it sucks.

The good news is my boss has finally decided to grow some nads and started to call me Warren, as he should have done a long time ago.

Also I were asked to help host a "Transgender Visability Day" at my place of work, and have talked to the bakery chef about making a Transgender themed cake. I'll take a picture and show it to you guys when it happens, I believe on tuesday.

I just felt like ranting and stuff, since it's one of my days off and I'm sitting here like a slug. If anyone feels like taking a peek at my gofundme thingie, its on my profile as my status. Have a ball.

Lots of love and snuggles and all that cheesy stuff,

Warren

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MonicaPz

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Don't know if they exist, but I wonder if there are men's one piece swimsuits. If I find it, I will let you know.

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WarrenG

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Thanks. So far I hadnt found any that didnt look rediculous, or they didnt fit my bust size

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Emma

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Warren, it's always good to hear from you. I respect your taking it a day at a time to get to your surgery. It's hard to wait and deal with all the heat and discomfort I'm sure. Each day and a few dollars here and there gets you a little closer.

Big hugs to you,

Emma

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eveannessant

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This might sound ridiculous, it sounds ridiculous to me now. Last summer ((heatwave in northern Europe), yes even in rainy old Britain!), before I made the decision to present full time as female, I had to wear a gynecomastia vest to hide my boobs! Bizarre a M to F trans binding his/her boobs......yes it was ridiculously hot, sweaty, and even worse when I wear a wig. So I know your discomfort, I also know, now that I am full time femme, that I can't go swimming because my wig will likely float off!

Yes, Summer sucks as you have said.............

Cheers,

Eve

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