Hiya Briannah. That Darling Girl, is one heck of a list. If it is of Any help, I have hardly any contact with Any of My Own Family. I have No contact with My Parent's whatsoever, and that has been the case for over 18 Year's now, Thank Goodness ! Briannah, I Am at the other side of the table to You honey. I have been MtoF Transitioning, for almost 10 1/2 Month's now, but through Your Post's, and Blog's, I know how hard that thing's have been, for Both You and Nikki. I " Came-Out " to My Wife, on 30th. April, 2015, and I started Buying Female Undies and Clothes; Wearing Them; and Being " Out " in Public, on 1st. May, 2015. My Wife did Not Know, that I Am Transsexual, before. So I understand what it must have been like for You with Nikki. I Personally think that You have been very mature, especially gaining advice from TGGuide, but also because You are able to share advice with other People as well. Briannah, both You and Nikki, have been on a Massive Learning CurveCurve in the last couple of Month's. I know that You have also had Major Health Problem's. I hope that You are Okay now. My Own Wife has had Major Problem's in the last 2 1/2 Month's, including Emergencies, needing Hospitalisation. Briannah, I Am here for You and Nikki, should Either of You wish to talk. Briannah, Good Luck, Good Health, Take Care, And My Very Best Wishes, Love Stephanie. xxxx. 

Hugs!  Thank you so much, I'm just so tired trying to push all this loose sand back into a sandcastle.  A whole mountain of sand.  But I WILL do it.  Somehow.  And have given myself permission to stop feeling weird about feeling upset, now that I wrote out that list and realized how much I have to take on at once.  Not going to be fixing the hernia anytime soon, the best possible route to take with that is to keep supporting it with girdles and braces until I lost at leave fifty more pounds, and then look at going back to the surgeon with a much lower chance of ripping it open after surgery again like I did.  But so far wearing supportive garments has had the desired effect of reducing overall soreness and drastically lowering the chances of incarceration like the surgeon said.  I almost have my voice back!  *let's dance!  I can't sing even with my voice, I'm one of those people with a really weird and rather unpleasant pitch*  I feel good again!  And Nikki said if the weather pattern holds we might be putting up my pool next month!  Probably May, but April is a possiblity!  That pool is magic for my moods.  There is something about floating in the water looking at the sky while I think over things in my head that is so comforting.  I think it ties back to Grandpa again, we spent SO much time in the water having various talks over my lifetime. 

I hope your wife heals up quickly soon!  *Hugs*  I'm sorry she's not feeling so well.

I honestly don't know why I keep cycling around with my family.   I know rationally how bad it is, but...I still want something.  I just don't know what.  Maybe once I finally sort out what it is I'm even looking for with them then I'll be able to make a solid choice to be done.  Or maybe it's just familial guilt so deeply ingrained I don't even know it for what it is, just a lifelong habit.  But I'm at least at a place where I can easily give them prolonged time outs when they are unable to act like human beings.  And Nikki now understands I need support with the crazy, so that has been better. 

Now I'm going to go watch Clue.  I love that movie.  Thank your whole country for sharing Tim Curry with us!

Oh my gosh, I wash you and Violet the absolute best of luck trying to navigate a move in the winter weather!  We foolishly did that once, and I swear never again.  I will do anything to only ever move in summer months again.  I hope you love your new home though! 

I'm trying to take 2 and 7 down in priority, just there is a lot of contact right now due to my mom's illness and my son needing help with handling her.  He lives there to help care for her and the house, so I can't completely bow out and leave him to deal with it alone.  And the other side is being suspiciously nice right now, so I'm going with it with a healthy dose of 'what do they really want now?'  Nikki is keeping an eye on me to make sure I'm not letting them get to me while I'm distracted.  Imbolc was on my birthday! 

I hope this prints as i typed it, I'm on the ipad watching Clue in the living room.  TIM CURRY!  This movie is SO funny, it always makes me feel like life is great and it doesn't matter what mountain of things I have.  For an hour and a half life is all "Yup, two bodies, everything is fine here!". 

And demand as many trips to Tasty Freeze as you want to!  She'll miss the days when he stops...and need the nostalgia! 

LOL I'm so whimpy to cold it in those conditions it might be naked dancing under my pajamas in a sleeping bag with no less than four fires in the tent!  You are brave!

I did the polar bear swim once by accident when Karma bit me in the but.  In 08 Nikki and I joined my mom and Daniel on an Alaskan cruise.  I was not overly excited about Alaska as I'm a total beach addict, but really pleasantly surprised and enjoyed the state a lot.  However, the cruise was a little stressful as the currents had changed, the boat was rocking wildly and walking was a challenge, and my son and I were SO sick the first day, while mom and Nikki were fine.  It was so bad 75% of the passengers and 50% of the crew was ill and they were handing out seasick pills like candy.  Nikki went out to forage at the store and came back proudly with a handful of individual packets, they had a big take what you like bowl set up on the front desk, no charge.  Really nice of them!  Which is REALLY weird because mom and Nikki are the ones most likely to get seasick.  However, amusement park rides tend not to bother Nikki, while they make offspring and I queasy, so it was probably the extreme motion rather than the usual gentle rocking that gets to mom and Nikki.  But thanks to the pills he found offspring and I had rallied enough to get to dinner and eat something.  The whole day we had only had a turkey sandwich we split between us while lying sadly in the bed glaring at Nikki who found it hilarious and was taking photos of us. 

So I get better, and I want to do EVERYTHING!  On the third day we went to Glacier Bay, and it was awe inspiring.  The glaciers are amazing, and watching the small calved bergs drift serenely by the boat was beautiful.  We were the first ship in, so it was all undisturbed and there were small bergs all around like confetti on the water.  They had a polar bear club swim on the outside pool.  This was in July, so mostly it was really warm on the cruise, but Glacier Bay was COLD.  I was standing on the deck above the swimmers with Nikki, and I laughed a little at them freezing in the water.  And I said "I will never do that!  Too wimpy, they're braver than me!" and went back in with Ashe.  And we proceeded to the indoor pool that is in a dome and heated area, and completely didn't notice that they had the dome wide open because they were setting up a lunch time poolside barbecue.   That pool water was so cold I can't even describe.  I think I sorta ran to the hot tub to recover, and then got stuck there because the air was cold.  LOL  I deserved it.  Laugh not at others, even in a non-mocking way. 

Nikki mentioned there are special dedicated cruises to LGBTIA, so that may be a possibility for a girl mode vacation in the future.  I think that would be fun for both of us, our favorite thing, a really relaxed atmosphere, and hopefully the weird intergroup conflicts left at teh dock, as cruises make everyone just sorta like each other for a week.  SEriously, what is with the splintering of the various groups under the umbrellas rather than uniting???  IT's not financially feasable for a couple years, but I'll have to start looking into this I think.