I wish the mind was elastic

My memory is so short and weak it’s mind boggling. I know that I will lose my train of thought and forget what I’m talking about several times in this post. I can remember next to nothing as I have no immediate and very little short term memory. The only things I can ever recall are things I would much rather forget. I wish my mind was elastic so it could stretch further. Because at the point it’s currently stretched to, it’s about to snap. Every time I speak these days, I screw up everything I’m trying to comment on. There’s no saving grace for me anymore. I’m a walking screwup. If I haven’t completely screwed something up, then I’m most likely not awake. Or I’m in the process of screwing it up. More than 99% of the time these days only one things like it could change all that.